I know this sounds like an oxymoron, but I feel like I'm pretty much set. I have a routine right now that is currently working (well, not weight loss wise, but I can run for twenty minutes, and I've gotten comments about looking smaller). Three more weeks of c25k, as well as renewing my 30 sessions pilates challenge.

I know my nutrition will fall into place as I improve my cooking, and I really just need to up my water intake. I don't really need to obsess anymore because the track I've picked a routine that forces me to improve physically every week.

What I haven't focused on is my career. I know that most people feel that weightloss gets their life in order, but it hasn't for me. It has really served as a distraction to things that are equally important.

I've gotten completely uninterested in the part time job I've taken, even though it is really advantageous for me.


Even though I live with my mother, I'm extremely blessed that I can focus on my career and not debt or paying the bills.

I can't depend on the guarantee of getting into graduate school, even though that is my ultimate goal. I know that the job market is horrible, and a 9-5 job may not let me explore the topics I want to.

I need to use jobs to support me financially, but I need to use my head to develop opportunities for myself. If I can develop my own topic, maybe write an article and field it to a few professors, get it published, network--- I may, I just may be able to work in a lab that shares my interests.

I hope, I just hope I'm right.