Tuesday, April 03, 2012
No not me on spring break, I have forgotten what a vacation is ,,,, but my trainer went on spring break with his little girl, and I am left to fend for myself. The going to work out part is fine, but what i realized at the gym this morning, is that I can't seem to torture myself as much as he can. I did most of the stuff he does during a session, but there was a lack of sweat and a lack of thoughts of Omg i could pass out. So the thought comes to mind, is it the support I am paying for to motivate me harder, to make me push myself, or is the actual working out? When I hit my goal weight, and tweak my workouts so that I can save a little money by not paying him, will I be able to keep up the intensity and strive just as hard. I just don't have that kind of support around me.
I have my husband who I adore, but who has the metabolism of a 5 year old, and the ability to eat anything and never gain an ounce, he has looked the same for 7 years. He makes sure that I get to my workouts, and that I get my time to do what i need to do during the day, but he has never worked out with me, nor has he ever got in to my new healthy lifestyle of eating. so when I am at the grocery store , the bill is double because I am supporting two diets. He is very encouraging with words, but isnt supportive when I am having a staring match with a few drinks or a giant piece of cookie cake. You get the picture...
I have other people who are enthused about what I am doing and are very encouraging. But these are the same people who are either already at their goal and dont worry about every calorie, people who do the opposite, as they tell me i can do it, or those who preach every single way to lose a lb. and I really should be doing.
Then I have my family here at SparkPeople, whose support is unbelievable, but I cant see your beautiful faces, and that equals less accountability on my part. Out of sight out of mind..
So maybe I am paying for the extra support and for now that is fine by me, but now my biggest future concern is not losing weight, but gaining the right support that I need and can't afford to go on a spring break.