Monday, April 02, 2012
He is still here. The last week he has been really good, the man I did fall in love with. It makes it harder. I think his way of thinking is that if he makes an effort, then he can stay.
I had to tell him again today that I need him to go. It is a bit like tearing out my heart a piece at a time. I am greiving about his leaving, scared about his leaving, excited about his leaving....
A couple hours later -- he thought it had blown over. That I didn't want him to go. So, I had to tell him again.
I am really depressed today and this is like the icing on the cake.