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My cry for help

Monday, April 02, 2012

It's official, I'm unmotivated. I just want to sit in the house all day and I certainly don't want to go anywhere anymore. Other than school I do my best to seclude myself into the house. I'm beginning to be angry all the time. My mom moved back in so now I have 3 people to clean up after well 4 including myself and I have a hard time doing chores now. My back begins hurting after about 5 minutes of any activity that requires standing. My knees are sore. My daughter has been sneaking into our bed at night and because I don't want more back issues I do not carry her back to bed instead I find a spot on the floor or I sleep on the couch. I cannot currently sleep on the couch because that's where my mom has been sleeping so yeah, it's been the floor. I have to talk myself into cleaning, it used to be when it was dirty I'd get right on it and get it done. I don't know what to do anymore. We just came into a small inheritance and I'm planning on getting a gym membership but I just don't know what kind of exercises I'll be able to do with my back pain. I try to push through it but I'm not sure if it'll make it worse if I just walk around letting it burn. I don't think I have a spinal issue I think my muscle in my lower back has shrunk from lack of activity. I'm not sure, I can't afford to see a doctor about it right now so I'm not sure what to do. So this is my cry for help. Has anyone ever been in my shoes? I want to hear some success stories or something that will give me a love for life again. Right now I just wake up, study, eat and sleep. I need more, my daughter deserves more from me too.
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NICKI984 4/3/2012 11:13AM

    Thanks for the comments. I'm going to check out the page you suggested also. :)

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MSMEMUCH 4/2/2012 10:05PM

    Try some seated exercises they may help with the back problems and just do some small strength training on you back muscles to try and help them build back up if you think that is what is causing the back pain. I also have been in a mood where I don't ever want to leave my house. I go to work because I have to and try to get out once a week with my friends. Other than that I don't want to leave my couch. But I figure if I don't do something nothing will ever change and I will continue forever in my spiral and I think not wanting to be miserable forever is what motivates me.

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ROMANS_8 4/2/2012 4:08PM

    Go to BORN2BLOSSOM's Spark Page...awesome success story. On the home page there are tons of inspirational and success stories also.

Just do whatever you can do, a little at a time. You may not feel like you are doing much, but anything will help. You can do this!

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ROMANS_8 4/2/2012 4:07PM

    Go to BORN2BLOSSOM's Spark Page...awesome success story. On the home page there are tons of inspirational and success stories also.

Just do whatever you can do, a little at a time. You may not feel like you are doing much, but anything will help. You can do this!

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