Monday, April 02, 2012
A week from today, my dad will have been gone a month. Between the funeral, a few trips to Wisconsin to get my mom resettled and dealing with my ever changing schedule, I woke up this morning wondering where the last month went. I sat at my desk in a bit of a stupor and realized that I couldn’t get any further off track then I am right now. In the past three or four weeks eating has consisted of what’s placed in front of me or what I grab of the run. Exercise is an exception rather than the rule. My reflective time has gone out the window --- I’m too busy being nervous and having multiple anxiety attacks, waking up in the middle of the night feeling like the world is caving in on me to spend any quality time relaxing. I look in the mirror and “ugh,” all my hard work has been flushed down the commode. To be honest, the urge to sit here and feel sorry for myself on a continual basis is a very attractive option.
The only way to get going is, well, to get going. As much as I don’t want to I am going to dust off some goals for April and slowly get back on track. Nothing earth shattering or elaborate here, just a few things to make me feel good about being John and building a foundation for myself to get back on track.
1. Stay within my calorie limits. That happens when I track what I eat. Wait, Spark gives me that tool doesn’t it?!?!? I think I’ll use it.
2. 45 minutes of exercise, 6 days per week. I just need to “do it.” Nuff said
3. Twenty minutes of John time each day to do nothing more thanb rest and reflect in my source.
Three simple, yet effective goals to help me get back on track. I'll keep ya posted