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Starting Again: April Goals

Monday, April 02, 2012

A week from today, my dad will have been gone a month. Between the funeral, a few trips to Wisconsin to get my mom resettled and dealing with my ever changing schedule, I woke up this morning wondering where the last month went. I sat at my desk in a bit of a stupor and realized that I couldn’t get any further off track then I am right now. In the past three or four weeks eating has consisted of what’s placed in front of me or what I grab of the run. Exercise is an exception rather than the rule. My reflective time has gone out the window --- I’m too busy being nervous and having multiple anxiety attacks, waking up in the middle of the night feeling like the world is caving in on me to spend any quality time relaxing. I look in the mirror and “ugh,” all my hard work has been flushed down the commode. To be honest, the urge to sit here and feel sorry for myself on a continual basis is a very attractive option.

The only way to get going is, well, to get going. As much as I don’t want to I am going to dust off some goals for April and slowly get back on track. Nothing earth shattering or elaborate here, just a few things to make me feel good about being John and building a foundation for myself to get back on track.

1. Stay within my calorie limits. That happens when I track what I eat. Wait, Spark gives me that tool doesn’t it?!?!? I think I’ll use it.

2. 45 minutes of exercise, 6 days per week. I just need to “do it.” Nuff said

3. Twenty minutes of John time each day to do nothing more thanb rest and reflect in my source.

Three simple, yet effective goals to help me get back on track. I'll keep ya posted

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
BAMAJAM 4/10/2012 1:09PM

  I offer my sympathy to you also. May you find support and comfort from your friends and family members. May you also reflect with gratitude on the good times that will forever be cherished memories. Be good to yourself and take care of your health, John.

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SILLYHP1953 4/9/2012 4:08PM

    Yes, those goals will do it. I'm aiming for them, too, but my goal is 10 minutes a day of exercise. My days will probably have more than that, but I know me well enough to not aim any higher. I need some success! Good luck, John, you can do it.

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MARCYNA 4/4/2012 6:55AM

    Back to basics, you can make it John. You've handled a lot, please be kind to yourself. I'm sure you have done the best, I'll pray for you.
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CMBELISLE 4/3/2012 12:17PM

    I'm inclined to agree with Sparkenista. Unless you were doing that kind of exercising three to four weeks ago, starting off a bit slower will get you back at it with less likelihood of burning out.

Give yourself time and small, attainable goals - you'll get to your big ones in time.

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NEEDTOLOSE100LB 4/3/2012 9:52AM

    These certainly seem like simple enough goals. Funny how the simplest things are what we really need to get back on track.
I wish you the best in maintaining these goals and I extend my condolences on the grief you are experiencing. Just remember, you need to take care of you too. Things will go through their cycle, but don't let it rule you. Do as you are doing and take it by the horns and move through it. Again, you will become a better person in the end. (how you can be a nicer, funnier or better person than you are is hard to believe, but you will)

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LYNMEINDERS 4/3/2012 4:06AM

    Love your goals John....need to take them on board myself....

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NASFKAB 4/3/2012 4:03AM

  Take it very slow hugs

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MAMADWARF 4/2/2012 11:26PM

    Dealing with a loss lie that is very difficult. Nothing feels normal and the things that were normal before it happened are just too much. Just take it one day at a time and be kind to yourself.

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7356WILMA 4/2/2012 11:26PM

  It is so nice that we can start over!!

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CARTOONB 4/2/2012 11:10PM

    May the Force be with you.

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JRZG8R 4/2/2012 10:53PM


It is admirable that you want to get back on track. It sounds to me that you may be tackling too much at one time. You can do it all but think back and I believe you will recall the time and effort it took to build those great habits. I am not trying to dissuade you only to remind you to give yourself some leeway as you get back into the swing of things. The all or nothing road usually ends with nothing.

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your father. I hope the you find peace and balance. Take care my friend.

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SPARKENISTA 4/2/2012 10:25PM


Give yourself a break--you're only human. 45 minutes 6 days/week? Too much! Only 20 minutes of John time to relax? Not enough. You'll get back in the saddle. Take it slow.

This is a formula for self-sabotage. Relax a bit. Allow yourself to grieve. Move back into your regimen slowly.

You are the same wonderful John whether you work out 45 min./day or not.

I feel sure about this.

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    Dealing with a death in the family is tough, John. We are dealing with the same things and almost a year later things have not let up. Just get through a day at a time. I tell myself daily to stay sane and this too shall pass and it will. Good luck with your goals.

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HDHAWK 4/2/2012 7:14PM

    These 3 goals will get you going in the right direction. I'm here for you!

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GEEMAWEST 4/2/2012 7:05PM

    That's all we can. Just get back on the horse when we fall off. I'm here for you, John. And I really mean that from the bottom of my heart.

Love and Hugs, Cheryl

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YOYONOMORE1 4/2/2012 4:09PM

    Well John, you are still here and you are still willing to give it all you got, that says a lot, you haven't given up and you aren't afraid to start it all up again. Just one day at a time, that's the way to do it and you will. Give yourself all the time you need to work through your grief.


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GOLFCHICK2-0 4/2/2012 3:18PM

    We start again every morning. You're just smart enough to give yourself an extra push!!
I like your simple goals. Keep up the good work John!!

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DEE797 4/2/2012 1:34PM

    One step at a time! emoticon emoticon

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ANATASHIKI 4/2/2012 1:10PM

    you know , it's sad , I'm nowhere better than you with the me time and 20 minutes is very little and we still barely manage to do that emoticon

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TRI_BABE 4/2/2012 12:23PM

    Yeah, it's a fine balance between resting and healing your body and then letting stressors get the best of you. Good job for getting back on track!

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AJDOVER1 4/2/2012 11:27AM

    You can do this!

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LUCYJOY 4/2/2012 11:13AM

    Grief is a funny thing and those anxiety attacks that wake you-I think doing what you have to do to get through it isn't feeling sorry for yourself.

That said, been thinking along the same lines. I don't feel much like living since my son died but the only way to do it, as you said, is get up and do it-which is my goal for this week. Bought food I could tolerate eating/drinking yesterday that will keep my glucose level and my calories in range and I am making myself get up in the morning and not try to sleep my life away.

I hope you can stick to your new plan.

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GETFIT2LIVE 4/2/2012 10:55AM

    Life sometimes throws us curve balls that make it difficult to stay on track. You're still here, though, and you are worth the effort; don't ever forget that, John, and don't give up. One small step at a time; you can do this.


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ANDREWS_MOM 4/2/2012 9:31AM

    Great goals! emoticon
It's so easy to get off track just with life in general - nevermind all of the stress and issues you've had recently. I spent the good part of last year mostly off track, unfortunately. March was my 1st full month of being committed again.
You are an amazing person who does so much for everyone else- you deserve this for yourself. emoticon

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