Sunday, April 01, 2012
Yesterday I was beyond miserable and felt like every muscle and joint was just going to give out on me and I seriously was wishing for a quick death!! Not in a suicidal way but in an overly dramatic flair that would just put me out of my sweet misery!!! But reading all the encouragement and talking to my sister-in-law really gave me my inner strength back!!! I also went and bought some thermacare back wraps at 2am on Amazon when I was lying in bed in too much pain to sleep!! I am hoping that that combined with my determination are enough to get enough weight off that it isn't soooo painful!! I got enough for 3 weeks and hope just for a little more then normal loss!!! Also the pool was mentioned and in one more week I will have saved enough money with watching an extra child to purchase our pool!! I plan to overuse and abuse that thing in a great great way!!!! I know that I am just climbing out of a little rut right now and hopefully these will give me the tools to propel myself out!!! I talked to Jeff a little about it and I was like "how do you feel after lugging around your 100+ pound ruck sack for a ten mile march (he is in the army) and he told me he felt like his back was splitting in agonizing pain... EXACTLY!!! Now just imagine you can't just set down the bag! It never goes away!!! .... So I think he finally understands what I am talking about which makes it so much easier to talk to him about it!!!