This is my fault, I am responsible.
Sunday, April 01, 2012
I weighed myself in today: I am back at my starting weight when I restarted the program for a 4th time. I don't really feel like too much of a failure, but I do feel that I have failed myself.
I tell myself all the time that I will work out, and change my lifestyle but I have done very little to do so.
All I have done is make excuses for myself and have wasted my time on this computer looking at 9gag and Facebook for no reason instead of trying to be a part of this community and changing myself for the better.
I am planning to go to college in the fall and have not done any of the paperwork for it. My room is a mess and I hardly have any energy for work because I do not sleep enough.
I have to change, I need to change if I'm going to better myself. I need to stop this horrible cycle that I am putting myself through.
I need to take time and reset my priorities and concentrate on them once and for all. This is the last straw, if I don't fix it this time I have failed myself completely. Every year that has passed I have had a resolution to lose weight, THIS NEEDS to be the year! I have to change and I have to stick to it.