Sunday, April 01, 2012
It has been a lot of hard work I must say but the rewards are incredible!! I have reached my second goal I had set since returning to Spark. I have lost another 2 pounds and now weigh 178.50 pounds!! I feel so wonderful about this I could jump up and down. In fact after weighing yesterday I did! The other benefits are: I am feeling so much better both in health and in mind. My self esteem is returning, I think since I haven't had any for so long, my blood pressure is much better, my blood sugars are great, my joints don't hurt as much, and just overall I feel pretty good. All of the hard work from exercising to planning ahead nutrition is paying off in so many ways. I just wish there was some way I could encourage everyone to stick with your plan and don't give up. I found giving up is the easy way out. No one likes to really give up on themselves but sometimes the hard work to be healthy when you have been overweight for so long and accepting that you have no control over it is the easy way out. I, too, for so long felt this way. I would over eat most of the day and then be so angry with myself for doing it that I would just eat more for comfort. My old friend, food!! It had always been there for me when things went wrong, it was there for me when things went great! It never entered, or at least I would not let it, my mind that it was really killing me early. I suppose like any other drug you become addicted to food was always the answer for how I was feeling. Well, I have now and will continue the fight with food I suppose for the rest of my life but this is a fight I am determined to win! I want this to be an obituary of sort to my eating past. I want to tell that part of my life for using food to feel good goodbye. I want to bury it but not forget it. If I forget it I might be tempted to return to it. I want my relationship with food to be a healthy one for the rest of my life. So, I am telling my unhealthy eating habits goodbye today! I am not saying that the struggle won't continue but now before it happens I know to use other skills I have learned here to deal with it. To think before I eat, to talk a walk if stress happens and weigh the situation out without reaching for food. To plan my nutrition in advance and if I might need to change something I have learned better choices to make. Power is knowledge I have heard. To me there has never been a truer statement.