Saturday, March 31, 2012
So, this morning i weighed myself for the first time in a long time. I mean sure i've noticed the Dr's office scales being a higher than I'd like but i can always tell myself that those are a little off because i had a big lunch or something. This time i didn't have that excuse, it was first thing in the morning and I was naked, so there as nothing but me on that scale. After putting the numbers in here to spark people, i saw my BMI. It scared me. SparkPeople doesn't tell you this, but i had just read somewhere else that >40 was morbitly obese, and i was at 40 exactly... MORBIDLY obese. That's a frightening word. I have let myself get so overweight that I am litterally killing myself. That was an awakening for me that i need to do something, and FAST. i don't want to die. I'm not suicidal, I'm trying to have a baby, but my eating and exercise habits are killing me! I need to be a healthy mom for my kids, so that they can be healthy growing up as well.
Seeing this number could have, and once would have just made me cry, but today, it empowered me, I have to change, i just HAVE to!