The Return of Motivation!!! (Easing away from Excuses)
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Back in August, I blogged about how I was going to get back on track, but did it happen? Nahhh....I stayed in my rut, and not only did I stay in my rut, but I let it turn into a ditch. Back in July 2010, I started working on my Master's Degree, in addition to working full time. My free time went out the window and SparkPeople got pushed to the side. Somewhere along the way, my DVD player broke and since I couldn't do my FIRM workouts or my Pilates or yoga....I let exercise slide. Walking was my main exercise anyway, but then my neighbors with the track got baby chicks last April for Easter and I was scared that my dog might try to attack....so another excuse not to exercise. Summer rolled around and all of a sudden, it was too hot to be out walking. Then I started traveling...and spent a week in Atlanta and one in Boston, in addition to continuing to work on my Master's.
August rolled around and I thought I was rededicating myself. Instead, as the new school year started, I found myself full of stress. The school year was soooo different from the past. New principal, new schedule, classes with up to 43 students, and I was just overwhelmed. I was just not prepared for the changes and found myself at odds with my job in a way that I had not in the past. Further my personal life was falling apart. I had been dating a guy for 4 and a half years, but suddenly our relationship was crumbling. I continued to work on my Master's, stress out about my job, my relationship and my family. As a result...I ate...and ate....and ate. At my lowest, I was down to 164 and generally fluctuated between 164 and 168. Good, I thought....just as long as I don't reach 170. And then one day, there it was...170...and then 171....and 172....and 173...and 174... I was just determined I was not going to reach 175. But still, I ate. I would stop by the store and get a bag of Uncle Ray's Hot flavored potato chips...and though I knew it had 6 servings in the bag...at 140 calories a serving, it didn't matter. I would eat half the bag before I stopped. Or I would go to Dollar General and buy a bag of gummy worms...and though I knew that there were 4 gummy worms to a serving and 14 servings in the bag...I would demolish half the bag before I got out of the parking lot good. I would eat dinner and then my mom would cook and I would eat some more......OUT OF CONTROL!!!!!!!!!! I decided I would get right for the New Year..I had graduated from the Master's program and I had broken up with the bf, so I was headed in a positive direction, right? Right...until my mom brought home a pecan pie. Not only did I eat my way through that one, but I decided to bake two myself...smh
. i wanted to lose weight for CIAA tournament...didn't happen. I got sick with bronchitis and a sinus infection...maybe this would cause me to lose weight...didn't happen. It was too cold to walk...my puppies would follow me when I left the yard and I didn't want them to get hit by a car...I didn't want the groceries that I had bought to go to waste....I made excuse after excuse after excuse until finally this week, I decided to do it.....I've tracked my calories every day!!!!! I've walked for 30 minutes each day and as of this morning, I weighed in at 170.....I hope to be at 160 by my birthday at the end of May...i actually would like to be at 155, but I'm going to be realistic. Keep your fingers crossed...I'm lighting it back up