Yesterday I was still in my funk, although I was working on coming out of it. Eating healthy was NOT on the agenda. Since that was the case I had dh pick up hot cocoa and donuts at the store when he went to get fried chicken, jojo's, rolls and potato salad for dinner.

I have to admit, the yummy greasiness of the crispy chicken skin was DELICIOUS! Bad, I know, but oh so good!

My two youngest had been tucked in bed and the next four were all out busy with friends and activities. When my dh went to pick up one of the kiddos I decided to sit down with a mug of hot cocoa and a donut and watch something on TV. As I flipped through the guide the words...Fat and Fatter caught my eye.

I didn't turn it on from the beginning so I'm not completely sure what the set up was but this is what I gathered:

There were two 20-something girls from the UK who came to Mississippi to live with some morbidly obese sisters whom, I think, all had diabetes.. During their week stay they watched their lives. Saw the $6 all-you-can-eat buffet they regularly visited and the plates and plates of food they ate. These sisters had diabetes. All the women on the show looked similar so I'm not sure if everyone they visited were one of the sisters or not but...

One of the UK girls massaged a lady's feet. Since she has diabetes her feet go numb and she needs to get circulation going.

They visited another lady at a clinic where she goes 3 days a week for four hours a time to have her blood cleansed.

The sisters took them to a cemetery where several of their loved ones were buried all dying from complications of diabetes. One of which had nasty gangrene in her leg. The sisters admitted that seeing their aunt in the coffin made them want to change their lives but after a little time passed they forgot all about and continued with their unhealthy lifestyle.

Struggling with their own weight (they both probably had around 100lbs to lose) this adventure had an impact on the two UK girls. The last minute of the show caught up with them about two months after returning home. One girl, they said, did not test positive for diabetes and had not lost any weight. Although the girl, herself, thought she'd lost a tiny bit. When they mentioned she hadn't tested positive for diabetes it made me wonder if she thought, "Oh, all I saw does not pertain to me since I'm not diabetic"

The second girl picked up running as soon as she got home. They said she'd lost 16lbs in those first two months home.

As I watched this show it impacted me! Me, who was in a funk and eating JUNK. As I watched it I was NOT able to finish my donut, it physically made me ill. I only consumed 1/3 of it. This is a HUGE change for me. In years past the old me would sit and watch The Biggest Loser every Tuesday with junk food!

What's scary is that my dh has diabetes. He's not doing anything to change it. His doctor has lectured him, I have pleaded, several of our kids have cried and begged him to eat healthier. I'm not sure why he hasn't wanted to get healthier. On Monday, as we drove to Taco Bell, I was opening up the mail. I mistakenly opened what I thought was a bill but it was results from my husband's latest doctor's appt. All his diabetes numbers were out of whack along with his fats and cholesterol. What will be his turning point? How low does he have to go before he decides to make the change? Hopefully not as far as I saw on the show Fat and Fatter.

As for me, that show helped snap me out of my funk. A reminder of why THIS time is going to be the time I DO get healthy. I even called to schedule an appointment with my doctor. Haven't been in almost 3 years.


Krista