Friday, March 30, 2012
Letís Be Honest.
Losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle is a lot of work. Itís rewarding wok but it is hard. Iím not sure that itís something that ever gets easy, it becomes more of a habit but itís not always an easy choice to make. Beyond those choices, there are other hurdles in the journey that we have to make it over and survive.
Iíve been keeping a secret. Nope, not here on Spark People but in real life. When I gained all my weight I became somewhat of a hermit. I had a great excuse, I was newly married with a new baby, I worked and was going to school. I was purposeful in my picture posting on facebook (headshots only taken from above with my head tilted at a certain angle.) People knew I had gained weight but I am not at all sure they knew how bad it really was or how much I really had to lose. My other secret was that I wasnít talking about the weight I was losing except to the obvious people think Weight Watcherís and work.
I was so ashamed of how big I was that I didnít want any of my friends to know the exact battle I was fighting. I would come on to Spark and go to my Weight Watcherís meetings and I would feel so proud of myself yet that was because here on the internet and in those meetings I was somewhat anonymous. You all didnít know the other Chelle. After 15 long months I realized the final leg of my journey had to be overcoming that embarrassment that I felt from the mass amount of weight I had lost and how big I had allowed myself to get. I know that I have to overcome those things to get to a pace of peace with my body issues.
So what have I done? Iíve come out of the closet about my weight loss. Iíve started a business. I decided to sell beach body products (nope Iím not blogging to sell but you can feel free to email me about it) because I never stepped into the gym on this journey. I have walked, run and used beachbody DVDĒs to sweat these pounds off. I also started a facebook page that proudly displays my accomplishments for the entire world to see.
My next step is actually telling my husband what I weigh. Iíve always been embarrassed because I weigh more than him and now I need to own it. My point is that we have to embrace and be proud of ourselves in every spot of our lives and not just online. Maybe this isnít your issue but if youíve lost the weight I have or if you are still struggling to lose similar issues will arise. Work on them because you are worth the effort.
If you need added support please join me on facebook or email me here. I try to always respond. I have stumbled upon so many things that have helped me such as beach body, weight watchers and SPARK that I really believe we must take all the help we can get to fight this fight. Oh and here is an updated picture of me, taken just this morning.