Friday, March 30, 2012
I know that I've been MIA for a while. My life has been a complete whirlwind since I had Adelyn in September. She is awesome and doing so well. She cracks me up everyday and can't imagine what I did with my life before I had her.
I've been on a roller coaster for the past couple of months that I want to jump off of. February 27, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It's not something that I ever expected to be dealing with at this point in my life...or ever for that matter. After months of just assuming I had a clogged duct or mastitis from breast feeding, turns out, it was (is) a 6+cm tumor. My official diagnosis is Stage IIIa, Invasive Ductal, Lobular Carcinoma, and DCIS. Yep. 3 different cancers. Hearing the diagnosis was just like a nightmare, but one that unfortunately, I haven't woken up from yet.
I started my chemo on March 13th. I'll have 8 rounds, which will be every 3 weeks. We're praying that my body responds to the chemo. After chemo is finished in August, I'll be having surgery and then most likely radiation. I've done some genetic testing and am awaiting the results to see what surgery will most likely consist of (either having one breast removed or both).
Chemo hasn't been fun. There are okay days, there are days that I feel like I'll never get out of bed, and there are a few good days. I've lost most of my hair and will be getting the rest shaved tonight. I have to admit, I'm having a difficult time dealing with the hair loss. It just seems like such an outward sign of what I'm dealing with.
I'm trying to eat better and fit in a little exercise when I can, because I know it will be good for me during the treatments. It will help give me energy and give my immune system a little boost. So I'm hoping to get a little more active on here again so that I can remind myself how important this part of my health is while I'm dealing with this cancer.
I try to stay positive, but it has been difficult. I'm trying to get into and STAY into "survivor" mode, but there are days that it is rough. So if any of you Spark Friends pray out there, if you don't mind, just say a prayer that this is the right treatment and that my body responds to it.
I've put on the biggest freaking pair of boxing gloves that I can find to fight this battle. It's a battle that I desperately want to win, and I'm going to do my best to win it.