Well here we are again at the start of another challenge... well actually we are almost 2 weighins into it. I did great last week. Probably because I wasn't home... was house and dog sitting at my son and dil's... so I went to curves 4 times that week and walked the dogs for almost an hour ever day for 5 days out of the 7 I was there. I was hurting in my knee joints and legs when I got home on saturday so took about 3 days off. Got back to the gym on tuesday and have gone 3 days so far this week. Will try and go again tomorrow.

I have a different attitude towards this challenge... it is not so much the numbers on the scale but it is the fact that I need to eat healthier... I can lose weight going on a crash diet but will it then stay off. I don't think so as I have been doing that for years.

So what I am doing this time is trying to eat a little healthier... not so much starch in my diet and if I feel like a treat I am having it rather than feel cheated out of things that I like... this week I have been having a little to many treats .

I am an emotional eater and when I go through stuff here in the home I tend to eat more garbage... but since I don't have a whole lot of the junk food in the house anymore that has helped me out a lot.

Being out at my son's last week really helped me get a good start on this challenge as I was exercising most days and really burning as well cuz those dogs just pulled me along... so much so was hurting so much by saturday that I had to take a few days off from my exercise. Have found in the past when I am hurting that much it doesn't pay to keep on going so am learning to listen to my body.

I have come to the conclusion that I have to do what I need to do for myself in order to get my good health back. So no matter what the family does I can not and will not fall in with their bad food choices... it is so much easier to just do what everyone else in the house does but I am the one that needs to make the right choices in order to take of this weight and get my kne joints back to what they were... taking off 50 pounds or more is going to take a lot of weigh off my joints and will make my walking exercise so much easier.

I just need to learn to be selfish in the right way and put me first instead of everyone else especially when it comes to my health.

I am halfway to my 5% goal of 12 pounds after the first weighin. I am hoping that for once in my life of all the challenges I have participated in to actually hit that 5% and beyond. That is what I am motivated for this challenge.

I appreciate all your comments and support on my pages. What would we do without the support of others that really do understand what we go through in this life long journey of wieght loss and eating to live.. not eating to die.

So therefore... I no longer will call my eating plan a diet but a liveit for I will eat to live... not eat to die.. in other words I will cut out the things I know have no food value and do my best to eat the fresh raw food that will give me energy and eventually a weight of around 150 pounds.

Thanks for all your help and encouragement... I know I haven't been posting much but I do read the posts most days ... so thanks again all you great sparking friends and especially my awesome teddy bear team