Thursday, March 29, 2012
I'm barely hanging in there.
I mean barely.
This week has been a huge struggle with me. I have had huge family drama. I got into a stupid argument with my sisters and nieces. It was stupid, I didn't cause it, and I am not going to apologize for something I didn't cause. Then I found out that my boyfriend who is the breadwinner, by a landslide in my house, is going to lose his job within a year. The factory he works for is closing and moving to Alabama. He has heard rumors that they are going to offer him double his salary now to move and work at the new factory. I say no. I have lived here all my life, my entire family is here, my friends are here, and all my children's friends are here. We know nothing and no one in Alabama and I refuse to move. The company is also rumored to give him a nice severance package, but he is only thinking about the money he would be making if he takes the AL job, and not how such a move would affect us all. It's been stressful, and caused 2 arguments so far, and I am really not looking forward to the next few months.
Plus, it's TOM.
I have started reading Joyce Meyer's "The Battlefield of The Mind" and I am really trying to rid myself of negative thoughts. I am also trying very hard to study the Bible everyday and make God a part of my daily life, through bible study, and prayer.
I also am job hunting for a teaching job. It takes a great deal of time to search, fill out applications, contact superintendents and Principals, put together and distribute your portfolio....It's endless.
It's soccer season, and I have been gone 3 nights this week in addition to working during the day, which means my house looks like a tornado went through it. :
I also am wanting to start writing again. Not just in my little blog here, but to write down the stories I have bouncing around in my head.
On top of that, I am a mother to 4 kids.
I am feeling overwhelmed and don't know how to deal with all this stress....and workout too!
My food intake has been horrible. I have been eating out more since I am not at home as much and I haven't always make the best choices.
My goal for the next week is to make better choices, workout more, stay on plan, and be here every single day!