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I Never Promised You a Rose Garden....

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

This is an oldie but goodie. I love to sing it and sometimes it hits home more than others. I am healing slowly and just when I think I am okay another bad day hits. The song says along with the sunshine there has to be a little rain sometimes...it just seems like too many days are downpours!

I can't seem to get past the anger. It sneaks back up on me when least expected. I am struggling. Some days I cry but not as often as I did. I still hurt and my self esteem is still way down there and even though he assures me I am not competing with anyone my mind feels like I am. I compare myself with her and wonder so many things. I know in time it will get better but in the meantime I manage to muddle through and put on my happy face. People keep telling me to move on and let go of the anger but do they realize how hard that is? Have they been in my situation? Yes I know I need to move on and the anger has gotta go because that just isn't me but for now the wound is still fresh and hurts so it might take me a little longer to get past all of this.

The good thing is I am back to exercising and trying to lose weight which should help my self-esteem issue....
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  • v JERZGURL_NAN
    and

    with the BEautiful ROSES in the ROSE GARDEN are indeed thorns and weeds but the rewards are Beautiful

    I am so so sorry that your garden is filled with sticky thorns but fortunately tears do heal even though they give us headaches and heartaches.

    so never forget

    YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL
    1610 days ago
  • v JERZGURL_NAN
    YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL
    repeat
    YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

    YOU ARE GOING TO claim VICTORY in this -
    You are Woman
    You are Mom
    You are Daughter
    You are Beautiful
    You are Wife
    You are AWESOME WIFE
    You are Family
    You are Beautiful
    You are Melissa

    http://www.beliefnet
    .com/Health/Emotional-Health/Yo
    u-Are-Beautiful-Now-Say-It.aspx
    1610 days ago
  • v ZIPITUP
    Keep up that exercise!!! You go girl!
    1612 days ago
  • v JSALERNO
    GLAD YOU ARE EXERCISING. IT'LL HELP RELIEVE A LITTLE OF THE STRESS. THE ANGER WON'T HELP JUST REMEMBER YOU'RE THE BETTER PERSON AND LOVE YOURSELF THE WAY YOUR SPARK FRIENDS LOVE YOU.
    1612 days ago
  • v VAMANOS
    While I agree that you are justified in your anger, I fear it is hurting you more than it is hurting the object of it. For now, try on letting go of it for 5 minutes. Don't think of her, don't even think of him. Think of your kids and a healthy you. Next time, maybe you can let go for 10 minutes, or even longer.

    Meanwhile, he'd better be treating you right, or you let me know and I'll come straighten him out! He'd better thank God for how lucky he is that you've decided to stay with him, and he'd better show you every day that he knows just how lucky he was. Hold your head high, girl, you have the high moral ground. As for HER, SHE is not worth another thought, of any kind. emoticon her out of your universe.
    1612 days ago
  • v MAGGIE805
    Let go of your anger? No, I'm sorry, you still have a right to be angry. Your trust was betrayed. You are doing the right thing right now by just concentrating on yourself and your healing. emoticon
    1612 days ago
  • v KARENA228
    Whatever it is, one day at a time...
    1612 days ago
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