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It's alive!!! but I ain't got no bolts in my neck.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012


Its been a while where I find myself with some time to sit down and write a post so since I had a couple minutes I thought it was time for an update. Point blank I have been struggling since June 2011, a personal tragedy is making things hard on me and focusing has not been easy so we get what we have here, some weight gain. I hit a point where I started remembering some of the struggles of being 534 pounds and with a lot of thought ie: Jedi mind tricks on myself, I have been on a roll for about a month now again where I am doing everything right.

To say that weight loss is a mental game would pretty much sum it up because if you are defeated mentally I doubt many people would be able to keep it together when it comes to something as difficult as staying focused in the face of stress. Losing weight is not easy for any person and someone who says that its easy is just plain lying to you, its a simple thing but easy it is not and there in lies the problem. I have come from 534 pounds down to as low as 305 in the last four years, I am currently as of this morning at a rotund 363.0 pounds but am riding my bikes almost every day now along with the most basic item in my bag of tricks which is a simple walk every day.

I won't complain or whine about things that make it hard because we all have them but $hit just ain't easy sometimes and I won't get into it more than that as focusing on the negative never helped anyone. Instead I chose to focus my energy on a couple things that are possible causes for an issue and I have seemingly come up with a solution as I am again able to stay focused and the weight is coming down again but then again when someone walks a few miles per day and then rides a few more it tends to help in that department so who knows.

Short and sweet is this post so I will end it here, I will also try to get a post up more often because when i start getting emails asking if I am alive obviously someone out there still follows.

Thanks for all of the support over the last couple years its been invaluable.

As ever
Me
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AROCHFORD 7/22/2012 11:13AM

    Hey glad to hear you are still alive!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 4/17/2012 12:38PM

    If there is anything that I can do to help, my brother, let me know.

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LUNADRAGON 4/3/2012 8:49PM

    Good to hear from you, and I actually have bolts (or at least hardware) in my neck~! I am having to do a comeback myself after 3 surgeries last year and regained 20 of the 30 I lost. Not easy, especially after injuries and surgeries.

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FEATHERGIRL34 4/2/2012 7:52PM

    I can totally relate my friend!! It has been a loooong time since I have Sparked .. at all .. the past few years have been daunting to say the least ... BUT ... things are looking up ... I am moving into a better space in my mind .... clearing out some cobwebs and decluttering!! Made it to the gym this morning for the first time in too long!! I hope that as the days go by, you find that your motivation is ever increasing!!!

Hope you are having a great day!!!

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CATLADY52 3/29/2012 7:09PM

    Life does have a habit of throwing one a curve ball at the most inopportune time. Keep on doing what you are doing and hope for the best. emoticon emoticon

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TRACYZABELLE 3/29/2012 12:48AM

    Life happens and we need to step away sometimes-- I hope you are back on track!!

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GOING-STRONG 3/28/2012 11:14PM

    Keep on keeping on!

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VEEJAY3 3/28/2012 5:52PM

    Life kicks you in the arse sometimes. I'm glad to see you're still kickin' back.
It's really really hard, I know. And not fair, and overwhelming.
But you feel a lot better standing there taking it when you're in fighting form.

I remember riding my bike the summer I lost most of my weight, and as my wheels crunched the gravel of the trail, I imagined it crushing my troubles and putting them behind me. I know you'll have a terrific spring and summer full or riding, and I hope not necessarily that you can outrun your troubles, but that you can at least put them out of your mind and behind you for at least a while.



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VEEJAY3 3/28/2012 5:52PM

    Life kicks you in the arse sometimes. I'm glad to see you're still kickin' back.
It's really really hard, I know. And not fair, and overwhelming.
But you feel a lot better standing there taking it when you're in fighting form.

I remember riding my bike the summer I lost most of my weight, and as my wheels crunched the gravel of the trail, I imagined it crushing my troubles and putting them behind me. I know you'll have a terrific spring and summer full or riding, and I hope not necessarily that you can outrun your troubles, but that you can at least put them out of your mind and behind you for at least a while.



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KROLES55 3/28/2012 12:42PM

    Glad to see your post. Yes, weight loss is really a mind thing. Keep pressing on and taking one day at a time.

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SNOWFLAKELILYM9 3/28/2012 12:28PM

    Wow, you must be feeling frustrated with all the struggling since June and then gaining some weight back, but also really great that you are figuring out how to beat the mental game of this journey, and you are right it is a huge mental game!! Your blogs are always so honest, and straight forward and courageous. No matter what life throws at you, you keep getting back up and fighting back for your health and for yourself. With your never give up or give in attitude, and your ability to keep on figuring out what you need to do next to win the mental game, and keep going, inspite of personal tragedies and anything and everything else that has come your way, you are succeeding and you are going to reach your ultimate goal/goals. Thank you for your honesty and always inspiring me with your blogs.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 3/28/2012 12:01PM

    Glad to see you're back. Best wishes on getting it all worked out.
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DDOORN 3/28/2012 11:57AM

    AMEN to "weight loss is a mental game"...! AND to "$hit just ain't easy sometimes"...!

If it was easy would there be anyone around struggling with weight...? Rhetorical, I know...

Great as always to hear from you and right beside ya, pushing through as best I can!

Even with this week being a wash on the bike I'm up to 264 miles for the month so far...hoping for more but it doesn't look too cooperative out there weather-wise.

Keep 'er rollin'!

Don

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PSMITH3841 3/28/2012 10:48AM

    Hey Mister, glad you're back....it's been a while and I was beginning to wonder what was going on....With all this great weather we've been having, I was sure I would see some posts on your bike travels at least....I'm happy to hear you're still peddling away, looking for the right gear to leave the mental game in the dust! Peddle on, my friend, Peddle on! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KENDRACARROLL 3/28/2012 10:08AM

    Life can certainly get in the way somewhat fiercely at times.
Glad you're back in the zone.

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BUTEAFULL 3/28/2012 9:48AM

    well I didn't email have you died, but I was wondering about you, but then again winter weather tends to stifle biking a bit so I wasn't entirely surprised you dropped off the radar either. Glad you are still focused Mr Family man, and haven't given up

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MEGA_MILES 3/28/2012 9:38AM

    Hang in there. We all have our ghosts to live with.

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PDQ1203 3/28/2012 9:30AM

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 3/28/2012 9:27AM

    WOW!! weird but while reading other spark blogs I thought,"I wonder if the dang spark unsubscribed me from Botzzz's blogs..gotta check that." and that when I checked my email box again...this blog was there! SWEET@!
Come back whenever you can, you definitely have followers and we all want you to be happy and healthy. Hang in there~

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INIT2LIVEIT 3/28/2012 9:18AM

    Keep at it friend! You are as ever an inspiration to me an many others. Please let me know when you get that Jedi mind trick worked out. Would love to be able to apply it myself emoticon

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