Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Today I realized since moving my bedroom upstairs that walking up those stairs is not causing pain. I know to some this is a little triumph To me this is a surprising joy. Over 12 years ago I moved my bedroom downstairs because I could not climb up to my bed without many stops, serious leg pain, and shortness of breath. I did not go upstairs for much of anything for all those years.
When my son died his stepfather and I embarked on revamping the upstairs. The main reason for this was to prepare a final resting place for his urn on the landing and display his memorabilia and friends. The whole upstairs is complete and his final home will be one that he will be proud of, I am sure. The decorations with dragonflies, dragons, will please him as he had a love for dragons. The first night of his wake a single dragon fly visited his friends and me on the back porch where we used to gather. The dragonfly took time to visit each one of us before flying off, not to return.
I have found such a peace in the new bedroom colorfully decorated in tomato bisque and terra cotta with coordinating accessories. The joy of being creative has brought back many memories of days that he I spent together.
If I were to impart anything to my friends here on site, it would be to find a creative activity that you can express yourself in freely. It is something that you can do to work through tough times when you would normally reach for food. It will give you hours of fun and a sense of accomplishment on completion. You can find groups through the library, on line, in the newspaper or at local community colleges to engage in learning something that you have always wanted to learn. I am currently working on a craft room and plan many adventures there. What I do not know I will find a way to learn. I have energy and a joy to life now. Most of this energy and joy has come from the surprising joys that weight loss has brought.