Tuesday, March 27, 2012
I hadn't realized how much time has passed since my last post. Crazy.
I do feel much more balanced now than I did at the end of 2011. My apartment is in order and make sure to keep it that way. My finances are getting in order. Next month is the real test on that. I’m not obsessively focused on losing eight, nor have I given up. I am spending more time doing things I love and wasting less time, though I still have work to do on that front. I haven't been working on my writing as much as I would like...or at all.
TWO STEPS FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK
I think I finally understand the saying “two steps forward, one step back.” You’re still moving forward, albeit slowly. I am beginning to let go of my perfectionism. If I overeat one night, I just eat better the next time. If I miss a workout, it’s not a reason to give up; I just make sure I don’t miss the next one. The important thing is to not beat myself up and to not stay down. As long as I keep going, that’s all that matters.
Um. Yeah. I still have no idea what I weigh. There are moments when I think I’ve lost weight—my stomach looks smaller, my chin doesn’t appear quite so fatty—but I’m not completely sure. I measured my waist and I think that it is the same as it was back in September. I’m happy it’s not higher but I hate that it’s not smaller.
My goal for April is to track what I eat during the week. I still struggle with this. I believe that my overeating is less frequent, but since I haven’t been tracking I don’t really know. So I will track all 21 weekdays. If I do this I’ll buy a new dress.
I still have a good feeling for this year. Change is still in the wind.