I spent this morning updating my Spark page ready to hit the ground running. Get back on track; exercising; tracking food etc. Samantha got me realizing how long it's been and that we both needed to get busy Sparking again.

When I thought about what's kept me away the past several months I was able to break it down to this:

40% health issues: Lots going on; having a nerve conduction study done tomorrow
on my hips and legs; lots of upcoming tests; drs are thinking
lupus. Lots of pain and fatigue that has just made exercising
tough.

30% depression: First just dealing with the health issues. Pain meds daily; always
hurting; always tired. Just kind of drags a person down. Then
a lot of you may remember my dearest aunt passed away
unexpectedly in September and then my darling daughter had a
miscarriage in January. Lots of emotional issues.

30% lazy: I had to be honest and that wasn't easy. Yes, there are some
tough things going on physically and emotionally, but too, I had
gotten lazy.

SO today was to be a new beginning. And then about 10:30 I got the phone call at work. My other aunt, my mother's only other living sibling passed away. She was 97 so one really can't say it was a shock; but we had just all been together on Saturday so it was kind of a surprise. For my mom to have lost her 2 sisters 6 months apart, well, it's very difficult on her. Just to give you an idea, my mom has buried both her parents; 6 siblings; 2 husbands and 6 children (my half siblings-not siblings I was close to). Me, my husband and my children are really all the family my mom has so in her frail state, everything falls to us.

So the attempt to "begin again, again" today will have to take a back seat for about a week, to a degree. I'm certain I won't have the time to log in and track my food and keep up with everyone, but I'll be paying attention to what I'm eating and Sparking in my head.

I so look forward to catching up with all of you in about a week to 10 days and find out what you've been up to in my absence. And then......start getting this body back in shape and ready for summer!!

Sending all of you who have stood by me, even in my absence, all my love and hugs and support.

I will see you soon!!