Monday, March 26, 2012
Ugh. I am SO not where I want to be.
On the plus side, I am pleased that my weight is a mere 2 lbs above where it was when I last tracked it on the site.
But.. I had hoped to be so much farther along.
Sure, I have excuses: my body has been quite disagreeable lately, between a chronic injury and a not-so-minor kitchen incident involving my index finger and a blender. Work is nuts. As a woman-of-a-certain-age, my hormones have a life of their own, and it seems that sometimes, I'm just along for the ride.
So I took a break.
But here's the frustrating part: a couple of work colleagues who didn't take said break in their weight loss journey keep pushing on. And They. Look. Great.
And I am happy for them - but frustrated for myself. Why didn't I keep it up?
Looking back, it was all that I could do to get myself presentable for work in the morning. Figuring out how to portion out my business lunch is just too much. Going to the gym when I can barely keep my eyes open due to the painkillers that I'm taking.
Simply put, needing to keep an eye on my diet was the proverbial straw that would have pushed me over the edge. Or so I thought.
So I left it off, and I'm not happy with what came to be as a result.
My husband says that I need to be kinder to myself, and while I agree that's true, I also see that we don't always have the benefit of living with the results of our decisions.
And mine is that if left unchecked, I may need to be on cholesterol medication in six months.
And I still hate my dress size.
Now that I've gotten THAT out of my system, let's take an inventory of what's good:
1) I'm still here.
2) I wrote down what I ate this morning and commit to doing it for the rest of today.
3) I have a hot date with my kickboxing class tonight.
And for now, those are the only decisions that I will make.
Tomorrow, new decisions.
Results? Not gonna worry. Just focusing on today.