Sunday, March 25, 2012
Since I have one pair of pants that were decent to wear to work, I decided I was going shopping today and I wasn't going home until I had pants. Really, pants. I just want a pair of pants, not jeans, lets be clear that my dress code at work says no jeans, not even gorgeous colored ones...
I've lost 42 pounds in the past year and over 16 inches just in the last 6 months. I know, I can't really say that enough...I'm pretty pleased with my accomplishments. But I can honestly say that I'm not even close to the shape that I've been for the past 16 years. Yes, 16 years ago I was in maternity clothes, carrying my son (ok, actually a few months from now but close) and since wearing maternity clothes with my oldest, I've not been in what I consider 'regular size' clothes. I delivered my son, stayed home, went back to work part time and the weekend before I started back full time, I conceived my dear daughter. Let me just say, sperm met egg and I looked pregnant...and I got HUGE with her.
Today my weight was 209, that's what I weighed when I got pregnant with my daughter. This is 19 pounds over my start weight when I got pregnant the first time. You know, the twenty that is most stubborn.
So, between the absolute need to cover my body for work and being at a weight that I haven't seen in years and years. I set off on the journey to buy pants - come hell or high water...being 6' tall, I don't use the words pants and high water in the same sentences often, it's bad luck!
I won't lie, it wasn't easy, I tried a new store in our area called Gordman's - I tried on 9 pair of black pants and walked away with nothing. Then I went to Kohl's, not only does Kohl's have amazing sales and extra % off when you use their credit card and meet $ totals purchased each year, they have their own brands, Levi's, Lee, Chaps, GV, and of course the Nike, Adidas and such for work out wear. But even at Kohl's, with tons and tons of choices and sizes including tall cuts, I tried on 17 pairs of pants before I even got close. I really hoped I was in a size 14 but I'm just not there yet. Darn!
So, I bought 3 pair of pants...a Chaps size 16 navy, and Lee 16L in brown that I can wear now and the same in black that I can wear in about 2 pounds. Every pair of pants are cut so different, it's frustrating to have the same clothes in the same size and they don't fit. But...I also bought several summer shirts and sweaters and camis to wear under blouses, that I already have (that aren't too big) and to mix and match with others. It was quite a trip. I also got brown shoes.
This summer, I'm going to look good I think, professional like I should. I'm still losing weight, toning a lot, I honestly think that another 20 pounds is do-able. A target weight of 190 still isn't in the healthy BMI, I get there at 183...and I've really hoped that I could reach and maintain a weight of 175 but right now, I just don't know.
I am a work in progress for sure. God just isn't finished with me yet! And I know that this journey will be many, many years into the future to get this all right. But today, I'm content. I'm in a good place, I'm feeling good!!
Thank you Friends, daily I'm inspired by your blogs, stories, successes and struggles. I love doing this journey with all of you! Karen