I've been pretty quiet lately; I've had a migraine for so long, I've lost count of how long I've had it. I would have to go through my journal to know exactly how long but I know it's been long enough that I've cut out artificial sweeteners and gluten (at separate times); treated myself for my out of control allergies and seen the doctor; bought a couple massage packages; used every combo of meds out there except the Excedrin since I ran out and it's still pulled off the shelf, I knew I was drawn to it for a reason when it was on sale but since I had two bottles at the time I didn't see any reason to buy 3 more but if I knew I would have migraines lasting 24/7 for months I would have jumped on it. I think (prayerfully & hopefully) that my problem is related to a broken tooth I didn't know I had that will be fixed Thursday and a root canal that I need that I can't get until April 9th unless there is a cancellation (Spring break means the office is closed for a week).
Yesterday, I decided to give myself part of my goal present since I have been maintaining so well and I've had no incentive to workout because of the pain and my sprained ankle (not sure how I could forget that). I just went to sit down on the couch about 5 weeks ago and sprained my ankle. The doctor said if this steroid shot doesn't heal me then we will do surgery to see why I have so many sprained ankles. I found this picture on tumblr.com last year sorry I don't know the exact link.
I think the piercings act in a similar way to acupuncture because I have noticed very little head/neck/dental pain since I got my piercing. I'm so glad that Eric talked me into only doing one ear at a time so next week, I will be looking forward to getting more relief. I've been taking aleve, tramadol, and codeine and it has been having almost zero impact but thankfully the piercing has a huge impact.
I haven't been lifting weights faithfully like I was and feel free to kick me around a little and challenge me or push me into gear. Not being allowed to do cardio really put me into a depressed state and instead of working out harder in other areas, I really slacked off. The only upside is I know I can maintain and still lose whether I log my calories and exercise or not and whether I work out or not but that isn't how I want to live my life in general. I want my skin more toned, I looked at portrait tattoos yesterday and my Dad was really impressed with the work we saw and I was surprised he was so supportive of me getting Adam's picture done. He asked if I would get it done on my inner wrist like Adam's butterfly but I told him I already had a goal tattoo picked out for there so I have to pick a spot that will still look good after I lose weight or perhaps wait until I'm closer to goal.
Adam's 18th birthday is August 5th and I'm trying to decide what to do: I thought about doing a butterfly release, a weather balloon along with red and black balloons (eco-friendly with bird seed inside so when they dissolve they feed the birds) with laminated cards attached that tell about Adam and how he died engaging in the "choking game". I've considered sponsoring the Compassionate Friends Website for a week and posting his picture and telling something about him and sharing about the dangers of the "choking game". One of my friend's coworkers this week told her about finding out about first graders playing it at school; if you haven't talked to your children yet or lately, please do so, all of the information you need can be found here (please watch the video without your children so you can decide if it's age appropriate): chokinggame.net/
If you feel led, please sign the petition on the site so Congress will mandate education so children/teens will stop being injured and dying.
Thank you again for all the support voting in the Pepsi Refresh Challenge; our conference is schedule June 18th in Washington, D.C. My Dad's health has declined rapidly in the last few weeks so it's too early to know if I can go but I would like warm thoughts and prayers to know the right decision to make for me. I'm very close to most of the people who will be at the conference but I'm also very sensitive and tend to feel other people's pain and am concerned that being with so many people I care about that hurt will be overwhelming and don't want to have a set back although I would love to meet in person so many people I have been talking to the last 6 years.
Thank you so much if you could handle reading this much, I really appreciate it. I'll try to write more often so I don't need to write such long updates. Thank you for all of your support and if I can help you in any way, please let me know.
Peace & Blessings,
Amber, Adam's Mommy Forever