I wanted to start posting here again because it truly does help for me to post what's going on and just allows me a space to vent. I have a feeling that some of my co-workers are getting sick of hearing me go on and on about weight loss.

Then I started to think about why I'm feeling that way... and realized that it's because I'm so focused on weight loss, that I think about it often. Now I say weight loss is what I'm focused on... and while that's certainly true... it's also about being more healthy.

This is the funny part... well, not funny part... but it's ironic maybe. Every time I work out, I feel better. I look better. I have more energy. There's NOTHING bad...except the time it takes to work out. So I should WANT to, right? But I don't!! I constantly have to fight myself to get on the elliptical and do my cardio. Aggh... I'll get there... it's just a pain tho.

Now onto some really cool news. So we went and saw the Hunger games last night (my man and I). And while I can't say that I LOVED the movie... it was good... but the shaky cam KILLED it for me. *sigh* That part isn't the news. The news is that I needed to eat... so we had to eat there... and because of that, I had to eat unhealthy. Why? Because they didn't have anything but fried food on their menu. I even asked if they had other sides that I could get besides fries. They didn't have anything... BUT ... I controlled myself. I got chicken tenders and curly fries. I didn't even FINISH the chicken tenders (which is HIGHLY unlike me)... and I hate a FRACTION of the fries that I would normally eat.

Of course, since I did stop eating fried foods (since February 8, 2012)... I woke up this morning with a bit of a stomach ache. It's wild to think that food that I would eat ALL the time makes me truly not feel all that great.

Anyways, I was thrilled that I didn't feel "obligated" to finish my food. I honestly can't stand leaving food behind. I don't know why that is. And that's truly my biggest problem when it comes to weight loss. The more food I have, the more I will push to finish it all. It's disgusting. I'm NOT portion controlling. Well, I WASN'T portion controlling. Now I just don't eat like a slob. Before I would do 3-4 hamburgers from McDonalds and not flinch. Now, I doubt I could finish one... much less two... with the way I've been eating.

Food is a problem for me. That's why I weigh as much as I do, but now that I'm getting that under control AND working out... I'm climbing back out of the clouds. As of this morning, I'm 20 pounds lighter than in January. 296.6lbs was about what I would "maintain" for the most part. I did go higher a couple of times, but I always seemed to level back out there. Now that I'm at 276.4lbs, I feel like I'm making some amazing strides!!

I can only imagine what three months from now is going to look like. Seriously... if I just maintain the level of what I'm doing, it's going to be crazy. My current goal is 200lbs. That's 76.4 pounds away. The funny part is that I know that it's NOT that hard to get there. I just gotta do it.

Wow. I wrote a lot. I should stop so I can start my day.

Thanks for reading!!

kevin