Saturday, March 24, 2012
I have been absent from pretty much everything because of life happening. Was following Eat to Live with good results until around the time of my surgery to remove the hernia-turned-tumor removal-thought it was cancer scare. Then my boyfriend died.
I lost the weight-almost 30 pounds- during these past 6 weeks in spite of myself. Mostly because part of my colon was cut out. Some was depression. And a tiny piece was that my sister has been living here (in my one bedroom apartment) with her 2 kids taking care of me and she can't cook. So if I have been eating at all, it's been various fast foods for the most part. But with much prayer, I feel like I am almost coming back to myself. I am still so...very...tired physically, but I am going to drive myself to the grocery store and get some produce and soy milk. I want a green smoothie so bad! And That's a Good Thing.
Haven't driven in almost 2 months. Still in pain. But I think it will do me some good to try to take back my life. I feel like this all happened in between some awesome stuff that was. Put on hold. Nursing school. Good relationship- finally. Lifestyle change.
Oh well, some of it will come back. I've gotta believe that (trying real hard). Stuff that's important. I'll get back into nursing school. Eventually, another relationship I'll welcome (missing Quint so much). But the weight- nope. If I need to, I'll carry the weight of the world on my shoulders before I will let it back on my belly again.
You guys are SO encouraging! I cruise the boards all the time even though I've been missing in action. I want to be one of those Spark success stories like so many of y'all- get my head back in the game. My heart. And my body, too. All the way back. Not in between time. All the time. And I know it will take time.
So Sparkers, it's off to the grocery store for me!