Saturday, March 24, 2012
So I realized that I took on way to much, albeit unintentionally, when I became extremely overwhelmed. It started so innocently. I had set smaller goals to reach bigger goals, but what I was failing to realize is that I wasn't acknowledging how many goals were being worked toward. I am still in my first year of homeschooling. I am doing a bigger garden this year with lots of new veggies. I'm going back to school. I'm making a lifestyle change. We are adjusting to a more active life with both children in extra curricular activities; more activities= more friends= more weekends filled with birthday parties. We have resolved to take the drive out to see family every 2 weeks. I will keep up with facebook and I promise to finally post those pics. I will check my e-mails. More and more family needs me to babysit. The list goes on... AAAAHHHHHHH! I think you get the picture.
Each item separately is no problem, but throw them all together, mix them up, omit strategy and preparation, and now you have a problem. So I have seen the error of my ways. And now I am formulating a strategy to overcome these obstacles. I am also writing it down as a sort of checklist, so when I get impatient with myself I can go back to the list and work on something; instead of dwelling on how long it's taking to accomplish everything.
That leaves one thing. I have always babysat for family and friends. I am actually down to just watching my niece and I actually dwindled that down to one day, so that it will be easier to do what I need for my children. Bonus it does make one less obstacle for me to go back to school. Now I have been saddened for the past six years that I couldn't babysit for family that lives further away. We don't get to see them as much. Well hear I am making changes. I'm enrolled in school. I already paid. Guess who would like me to babysit. Now what. The stubborn, determined, emotional part of me says I will make it work. The logical part says that it's too much. I can't home school my two children, go to school myself, and babysit for family full time. On the plus side I have until September to make a decision and half the decision is made. I will not put off school any longer. It is something I feel is in mine and my family's best interest. Plus the timing is right. As for the babysitting I am going to do my best to take this time to come up with some creative and workable solutions.
I guess the point is when you are about to make a lifestyle change step back and assess your position. You would be surprised what's already on your plate. Then you can proceed appropriately. Otherwise your setting yourself up to make it harder than it has to be. Trust me if I weren't such a stubborn pain I honestly think I would have thrown in the towel. So here is to a stronger tomorrow!