Friday, March 23, 2012
There are good choices and bad choices... There are easy choices and hard choices.
Boredom is my largest downfall. I've kicked smoking, now I need to kick the eating part of my habit which has seemed to have gotten worse since my new found lungs can breathe again. Today I had 3 hours to kill (Fridays are my killer days I think) at school and all I could think about was eating. I wasn't hungry but I ate, and ate, and ate some more. This wasn't even unconscious eating I knew I was doing it. I debated, and debated and debated and ate and ate and ate some more. OMG!
Why couldn't I stop myself? Who knows? Maybe that stale croissant just looked that tasty. (Yes it was very very stale and I was really mad afterwards) Or rewarding myself with a donut for slam dunking a test was just what I needed!
There were plenty of times that I did stop myself though and I guess I should be proud of those little moments but really I am mad. This is for me, no one but me and I need to get control of the situation sometimes!!!! ARG! LOL The donut also hurt my teeth cause the fondant was too sweet, and since when do I eat donuts anyways?
So that was my day. I struggled all week only to fail today. I hope next week I will be stronger to say no to those evils dancing on my shoulders.