Tuesday, March 20, 2012
So I have been struggling a lot since January, which is pretty typical of me. I've been binge eating, eating way too many sweets, totally cognizant of it the entire time with a "who cares" kind of attitude. I also haven't worked out at all since mid-January.
While looking at some progress pics, I remembered that my legs now heal very slowly. Minor cuts usually scar now and bruises take forever to go away. I googled this and lots of people in forums suggest this can be related to diabetes. I don't think I have diabetes (though I am not sure as my doc didn't do any lab work at my last physical), but you never know.
My mom has type 2 and is suffering from a lot of the healthy problems that it brings. I am so scared of diabetes, which runs in our family heavily, that this, the thought of me having it or getting it, was enough to scare me back into health.
I know that I was eating too much sugar and gaining weight back, feeling sluggish, not drinking enough water, staying up too late. But ultimately, like the two other times in my life I have lit a fire under my butt, it has been because I am scared of getting diabetes and/or just concerned about my overall health and quality of life.
Realizing this, I think, is a pretty huge breakthrough. Perhaps if/when I get to that bad place again, I can use this to remind myself of what it's all about: treating our bodies with respect so that they function how we want them to.
This has also made me more aware of two other things: mind/body connection and using food as medicine (not in a self-medicating way! LOL).
What are your thoughts? Have you been scared into healthy habits? Is there a mind/body connection?
Much Sparky Love.