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Lost A Day....

Monday, March 19, 2012

I'm Type 1 Diabetic, on insulin to keep me alive. I ate fruit for breakfast today and took a little insulin b/c fruit is sweet. But, decided to lie back down and take a nap and never got up! My husband came home b/c he could not reach me on the phone. He had to give me a glucagon shot which essentially is a shot of glucose. So much for a sweet tooth challenge when I have to get a shot of glucose just to bring me 'round! This was 4:30 whenhe came home and rescued me.

Now I feel totally wrung out and wiped out! Insulin shock is just that.... Your body goes into shock. So, when I do come around I am sweaty, but freezing and my muscles are all stiff from me tightening them up and frankly, I stink. I sweat so much and it isn't even a natural smelling sweat. It just stinks. I haven't gathered the energy to take a shower yet.

But, do you know what I did? Once I ate a little something and got my wits about me and gathered up some energy, I did my 1 mile walk with Leslie Samsone! Am I addicted to exercise or what? I still want to get some more exercise in, but don't know what I will get to today.... I'm supposed to do my 100 push-up training workout today and don't know if I have that kind of strength or not. I suppose I'll try.

I know other diabetics will get mad at this, but I've been diabetic since age 3. I'll be 47 in June. I'm sick of it. I don't like checking my sugar all the time. I don't like low blood sugars stealing an entire day away from me. I don't like high blood sugars stealing bodily functions, like eyesight, away from me. I'm sick and tired of being a diabetic. Do you hear me? I am sick-and-tired-of-being-a-diab
etic!! Am I having a pity party right now? You betcha!
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  • v CANDOK1260
    all i want to domfor you is give you emoticon and tell you emoticon . know none what someone else like is life so you what your think is right asnd feel how you feel. only you can live your life.
    1560 days ago
  • v BIGLITTLEWOMAN
    Life just isn't fair and sometimes you need to shout and swing at the world. Get it out, you will feel better. Thankfully hubby is in tune and made a timely appearance. You are doing so many healthy things for yourself, it has to benefit your diabetes management. You have had a rough day. After a good shower and evening with loved ones I hope your heart is lighter.

    P.S. On a side note, I love your colors. Lavender and orange hmm....
    1562 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/20/2012 3:34:19 PM
  • v ZELLAZM
    Hope you recover quickly, Melissa. You didn't lose a day really - you got in a walk, that's amazing! Your perseverance is inspiring!
    1562 days ago
  • v HIKETOHEIGHTS
    Awe, sorry you are down sweetie. Pity party is okay every once in a while, especially with the cards you were dealt Melissa. Also, I don't blame you for being sick of it, I would be too. I am thinking by the time you read this you will already feel better, but just in case, remember we r your emoticon emoticon

    Sending you some big emoticon . & emoticon
    1562 days ago
  • v LITTLE_QUEEN
    I am not mad Melissa, I certainly understand how you feel
    1562 days ago
  • v SOFEDUPP
    I don't think anyone should get mad about you expressing your feelings about being a diabetic. They are not in your shoes, so they do not know what you have been going through because of the diabetes.

    I am here if you ever feel like venting!!

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    1563 days ago
  • v LESSOFMOORE
    Melissa, I am so sorry to hear that you lost a day, but thankful that Anthony saved the day. I don't blame you for being tired of being a diabetic. I don't think anyone should get mad at you for telling the truth. I wish I could do more for you than just being a Spark friend! emoticon emoticon
    1563 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/19/2012 7:53:48 PM
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