Sunday, March 18, 2012
I am feeling an emotional high after a pretty miserable night out.
I'll start with the misery. I dont know what I am doing to myself but I have been finding myself binging. it is completely destructive and I am now even heavier than before.
I dont know where these feeling are coming from... Stress? Depression? Giving up? I hate myself for it.
Getting dressed for a girls night out on Saturday tore me apart. Maybe I should day I tore my closet and drawers apart. What a mess! I ended up completely in all black with some green beads for St Pattys.
Before you wanna slit your wrists from reading this misery, M and I went for our first (of many) 3.5 miles walks today. I also won an auction for a BodyBugg and spent Saturday afternoon bent over with a drill in hand taking out screws and flooring at our cottage.
You have to crawl before you walk.
Tuesday is our next walking date and I cant wait!