Ok y'all. This is just crazy. I have been dabbling in Primeo this week (my own new hybrid cross between Primal and Paleo) with a little the week before, but more this past week. And prior to even knowing about these things, I was really starting to tackle my carbs because that was the one area tripping me up. And all "good" carbs too, nothing bad but I was trying very hard to keep it around 125 - 150. (and this was gross, I didnt know anything about net carbs until long about Wednesday this past week)

Okay so back to my Primeo experiment and dabbling this past week.

I cooked some chicken thighs with the skin on!!! Can you believe it?!!
And I even ate a little of it, can you believe that!!

And I fried and ate some bacon!! Can you believe that?!!
And I saved some of the bacon grease and used to get my stir fry started. Can you believe that??!!

As I was doing these things, and eating these things... I felt like I totally betrayed all I had accomplished thus far. I mean it has been DECADES since frying with bacon grease. And you know when I use to do it? When I was young and healthy and in good shape, and at some point someone said... "stop that! You will get fat!" So I stopped that... and I got fat!!!

And cooking chicken with the skin on!!! Heaven forbid! You go straight to hell for that one.

So imagine my reluctance, my internal struggle to go against everything I had been trying to program myself into believing I needed to do for the benefit of good health.

But here is the thing.. and what I kept telling myself.... in disbelief at first, and astonishment and amazement.... there's NO CARBS!!

And butter..... my old friend butter that I hadn't seen since.... well I am not sure. I don't think I every really cooked with butter due to cost and what I thought was bad for you stuff, but since I became a savvy shopper and stocking up, I did buy some through the holidays and used it for baking. Which I remember thinking at that time, what in the world are you thinking Girl?!! You are trying to lose weight and for the first time that you can remember in your adult life, you are buying butter??!!!!

So I only had about a TBL in the frig, but my blue bonnet doesn't have any carbs and zero trans fat either, so I used that this morning until I can get some butter.

Butter!!! Can you believe it??!! NO CARBS!!

And did I mention that I haven't really exercised since Wednesday? Well, not completely true. I did a little yesterday because I joined a challenge and I didn't want to be the only one that didn't do anything, but normally Saturday & Sunday are my days off, well sometimes Saturday, so anyways, no real exercise to speak of because I didn't know if I should since I was trying to do a leptin reset.

So... what does this all mean? Why am I so excited to do what seems to have completely betrayed my commitment and destroyed what I had accomplished so far, and totally annihilated any hopes of reaching my goals?

Well..... drum roll please.......I still showed a loss of 1.9 pounds!!

Ok so my one week or two doesn't makes make it ready for the science books, so I am going to diligently stay on top of it and see what happens, but so far so good!!


I should add though, that driving along the road yesterday, we saw a deer and I had this overwhelming instinct/urge to jump out of the car and go chase it down!!