Friday, March 16, 2012
Today was just...well...instead of boring you with all the details, let's do something fun and I'll tell my story in pictures.
Yesterday, work rocked and I felt on top of the world and I was all...
Today, work was really rough and I felt like...
At lunch, which was an hour and half later than usual because things had been SO busy, I really wanted to go to a buffet and eat...a LOT.
But, I knew in my heart that I should have this instead:
And do you know what happened THEN???? Sitting at my desk...this literally happened....
That's when I realized...there has never been a more CLEAR example of the fact that I am an emotional eater and that my trigger is stress.
So, I had an entire inner dialogue with myself. "OK, I want to eat because I'm upset. I feel....???"
Not Good Enough
Out of Control
And I chose the salad. It was delicious. But I still didn't feel better. So, the breakthrough was that I recognized, in the moment, what exactly was happening and I did the right thing.
But I'm still left with this icky, frustrated, anxious, jittery feeling. It's like...now how do I actually HANDLE all these yucky emotions if I can't just eat and stuff them down?