Friday, March 16, 2012
Yep, March is here folks. Crazy, but true!
Life is so incredibly strange these days. I'm STILL adjusting to working full time and struggling with finding balance.
I've gained some weight, which I'm not happy about. I know some of it is legit, in the way of muscle. Seriously, my arms are jacked!! The part that makes me mad is the part I know I've allowed. I've allowed myself to eat too much at night. A snack monster lurks in my house and rears its ugly head in the evening. I've been working on ways to banish the monster and so far it's been working. I set a 1 week goal of losing a pound. I lost 0.8, so pretty close. I challenged myself to walk 15 minutes each day at work, journal about my feelings and food, and be ready for bed (including teeth brushed) by 8pm. It's nice to be able to climb right into bed at 10:30 and since I already brushed my teeth the urge to snack is banished. The only time it doesn't work is when I CHOOSE to not do it. Hey, I'm not perfect and I don't claim to be. It would be nice if I could be perfect, but I can't.
I'm definately going to continue my ready for bed by 8pm plan! I also want to get back into my normal running routine. Winter in my area is not a friend to the runners!! It's just not safe. My knee is feeling better when I run, so I'm anxious and excited to continue.
I filled out my CNA course application, but the Adult Ed place hasn't figured out any details yet, so I'm in limbo. Waiting. . . . patience is not a virtue I have much of. . .
Work is frustrating and challenging. My body loves the challenge of physical labor, but my co-workers are another story. I'm sure everyone can relate, so I won't continue. I remember when doing 3-4 girlie push ups in a row was a challenge. Now I'm able to do 20 regular push ups in a row!! I'm trying to do more in a row, but it's hard. I can also hold plank for 2 minutes. Crane pose is also getting easier. My goal at work is to out-do all the guys I work with. Since a "girl" in my department is rare (if not unheard of) I want to prove myself. My goal is to pick up more weight in each load, sort faster, and be as versatile as possible. I'm learning all I can and people are noticing. People who don't even work in my department, people who just walk by, have stopped and commented on my work. Feels good to know I'm doing well.
Hubby and kids are having a great time! They are doing school work together, playing games, and having a great time. Hubby even cleans and cooks. I come home from work to find dinner ready, the kids happy, the house clean, and the laundry done. What more could a girl ask for?? I've truly been blessed!!
While I'm frustrated and struggling to lose weight, I know what I need to do. Now it's about working through my issues and making the necessary adjustments. Thank you to everyone who is still supporting me. I wish I could be more active with SP, but my family needs the time I have available. I may be absent, but I'm still working, still changing, still struggling, still fighting, still succeeding, still failing, still smiling, still running, and still hoping. I'm also still thinking of you and hoping you are doing well.