Friday, March 16, 2012
For the first time ever, I truly have my mind in the game. I have decided that I don't like the way my body feels and I am going to do something about it. Easier said than done. Although, in some aspects, this attempt at weight loss has started out easier than any other time. Since I have my mind 100% decided to do this, the changes that I have made to my eating habits haven't been nearly as difficult as in the past. The only other time I have been able to commit myself to such a huge change is when I was pregnant and had gestational diabetes. That time I had to change what I was eating for my unborn son and cheating or failing was not an option as his health depended on my success. This time, I am not doing it because I know I should, but because I truly WANT it. For me.
Now, on to the point of this blog. I am taking medications to combat my chronic form of leukemia. Correction: I am on one medication for the leukemia and three others to combat the side effects of the first. Three of these four medications have documented side effects of water retention, weight gain and extreme difficulty in losing weight.
So, I am two weeks in on my lifestyle change and I have been very good. The scale, however, is not being nice to me. Two weeks of trying hard and I'm still gaining. Now THAT is a tough pill to swallow. I am still committed to doing this, though. Even though the scale tells me otherwise, I actually do not feel as bloated, or "puffy" as I like to call it. That alone is reason enough to stick with it. I think that my scale - which is sitting there constantly reminding me that my weight can fluctuate up to 5 pounds in one afternoon due to water retention - needs to take an extended vacation to the local landfill. Time to let how my body "feels" be the judge of my success.