Thursday, March 15, 2012
Ok. So I might have never EVER EVER jogged for like 10 minutes without stopping - IN MY LIFE… until today. I was able to deal with the HORRIBLE flashback to Elementary School and the Presidents Fitness Award where I was forced to run a mile and was kept on the playground until I did it. I believe it took me close to 3 hours to “run” that mile. I just finished 1.38 miles in 10 minutes. WHAT!?! (and… I can now use my Wii Balance Board without modification)
It really is interesting to view loosing weight/exercise as a life solution not a character problem. I was always told that if I just found the motivation/discipline/etc - yeah, that is a part of it but there is always so much more. I haven’t actively thought about that bitch of a PE teacher in YEARS - it happened in, what, maybe, 4th/5th grade…
(sometimes I really love and hate knowing psych stuff) I’ve really been reviewing a TON of the self-talk that I have related directly to weight/exercise/eating… especially since its been such a HUGE part of my life. I hear everyone of my bio-family… who were all overweight - almost force feeding me excuses on why I can’t, shouldn’t, couldn’t, wouldn’t want to…. I hear the absolute abuse from my gym teachers. I should go burn down their houses for all of it. (Not really but by The 'Verse - it was nice to think about it.)
I'm really dealing with a ton of the psychology of weight and weight-loss... Self talk plays into so much of it - rooting where some of these ideas came from - and really finding a way around those road-blocks.
(Will be writing more on this soon... I think - once I have more time to think on it)