I was so amazed when I woke up at 7am this morning and found out that I had actually slept for 6 solid hours. Although I wanted to go back to sleep I couldn't I had to get up and get ready for work.

This time at work no glitches only a few customer related problems to deal with and those I turned over to the MOD to solve. I couldn't do anything to help them so I staid out of the way and let them deal with it.

We are hiring again, UGH! which means that my hours may or may not get cut back and if they do I will have no choice but to seek another job - a second one. I will not quit this one unless I get a full time job.

I will take this one day at a time I still don't trust the ASSist. when she says that she will give me the same hours. Already next week I am done five hours. I now how about 25 or 24 hours instead of 30 or 32. That is a huge difference and as you all know I need every penny of those hours cause of rent increases and the increase in our Shaw bill.

As for mom she is still the same - no change. The reason for the three transfusions was that she was extremely anemic and emancipated due to not eating and taking her meds.

John had a good talk with the nurse at the Hospital. She phoned to update us on mom and to ask us some questions. John filled her in on every thing that mom was and wasn't doing, Her attitude, her burning things down, lying to us et.

He talked to her for about 20 minutes. Now she has a better picture on mom's mental/physical and emotional health. I for one am relived that John took the call while I was at work.

As for John he had his appointment for blood test and lungs workup and next it is more follow up with his back. Now at least he is doing something about it.

After work I came home and made us an early dinner of Chicken burgers and tater tots baked with no fat and no salt. Very tasty meal.

Now I am just relaxing and catching up on her before settling on the couch for a few hours of T. V. watching with some knitting too and a healthy snack. An apple

Oh I did get a lecture while I was at work. One of my co-workers were asking about mom and I told her about the guilt that I was feeling and every thing else.

She told me bluntly to get those thoughts out of my mind, That this was not my fault and not my doing.

"Your MOM did this to herself, she made her bed and now she is lying on it" " you have to let it go or you will be no help to you, your brother or you mom."

She and all of you are so right. I loved this lady's bluntness. She like you all speaks from her heart and head.

I have now accepted this situation and I know this is not my fault. JOhn and I have done every thing possible to get mom to eat healthy and to get in her physio when we are with her.

Today I walked an extra 5,000 steps and did one set of back exercises along with some core strengthening for my back.

My back is feeling better after this short workout and I will do the same each day this week along with my switching up my routines so that I won't get bored or laxed in them.

Soon I will be able to show you all the crochet Giraffe that I am making for the Assistant Manager that she has order.

Then onto finishing the knitted Christmas Elves for a good friend her. Once all my orders are done then maybe I can get started on the St. Patrick's Day Doll that I want to do.

I know it won't be finished by the 17th and that is fine. I will have it for next year and I can still put it on my window sill with my other knittables.

I hope you all are doing great and having a great week so far.

Time for me to shut down and get my knitting going.

Love you all so very much. Hugs

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