Tuesday, March 13, 2012
While I must admit, I have gained back a little weight, I am not sunk. Some of my older Spark commrades may recall my struggles with chronic pain, and the discovery that at under 30 I had already started to suffer arthritis. It was horrible for me, I had just picked up a LOVE, and I mean L O V E, for running, thanks to spark. After I got accepted to my "dream college," at the end of 2011, I realized that I was on teh fast track to serious weight re-gain. All the stress of aplication and grade perfection, on top of the physical issues, had threatened a lot of my progress. But, old habits, even the good ones, die hard; thanks to spark.
I must admit, there has been a scale on my kitchen counter the whole time, even when I was overeating in the same room. There were whole grains, vegetarian treats, and plenty of balance in my food choices. I just kept slipping toward the end of the day, or going on streaks of "I failed and I have lost SO much weight that if I let myself gain 10 pounds under this life stress, I can just take it off in no time." WHAT?!?!? Yes, I actually told myself silly stuff like that. It is like my weightloss was money in the bank or something, like over 100 pounds of weightloss somehow afforded me 100 extra pounds of wiggle room if I wanted to just let go. Um, no. I guess I should be grateful that I even lost enough weight to haev such a silly thought, but caught it before I undid all my progress.
I have a list of things that I have learned during the last few months. I know that I started to realize this last time I was absent for a while, but it is SO clear to me now, I need to track my food. No matter what I am doing, I just need to set that time aside. i started to feel a little guilty because someone in my life had put down my food tracking, like it was selfish. Taking the time to do it was not much extra, but when I mentioned it I think this person thought that I was playing around on the computer instead of taking care of a commitment with them. I have tried to reason with this person, and some others, that my health is the core issue here, that this is not about vanity. Anyhow, now, I know. I cannot let even the most well meaning jibes to my food tracking and weight maintenance (and goal completion) drag me down. I am in so much more pain now, and after having lost so much weight I know that 1. I wiill be in a LOT more pain if I do not work at this again, and, 2. I have to do it, while the pain is still less than it coudl be.
Anyhow, I am always good for rambling. Always. But, I just wanted to get this little bit out of my head. I have a lot of homework to do. There are some other little things I learned, but I cannot jot it all down oline now. The main thing is that I am back again. Even if I cannot always post I know that I need to keep that tracker in reach.
The sparkpeople app does not work on my phone anymore, I guess my android version is too old (2.2) but I have a Kindle Fire now, thanks to the neccessity of school... The Sparkpeople app works great on Kindle Fire. I use it to track and I can get it done very quickly. The screen is much better than on my cell phone anyhow! Just gotta get it in, no matter how.
Oh, and I am excited that i am checking out the sparkpeople cookbook now. I was hoping it would have an index section for the less than 30 minute meals. It did!
Be successful! Make it happen!!!! If you are just back after a while, stick around and congrats! Teh habits you learn here really WILL stick. The basic, online, pre-spark book program has set me up with healthy habits that I come back to again and again. I am so grateful. Even when life gets hectic and my health is questionable, I know there is a way to get on track, and thankfully so much of it is still near second nature! Just gotta put it in action!
No more rambling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!