Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Over the past weeks of recommitting to Spark People and more recently to more mindful eating, it has become clear that perhaps the thing I need to lose most is my bad attitude. Please do not get me wrong, I am a pleasant person for the most part and on most days. In fact, people have even told me that they feel encouraged or relaxed and peaceful after talking to me about an issue or in general.
BUT in my mind rages so many different thoughts, critical thoughts, stressful worries, jealousy and comparisons, pessimism, busyness and an inventory of memories that are used for good and bad during my day ... these forces compete with the good interactions, thoughts and inputs throughout the day and for whatever reason the negative even if few carry so much more weight and tend to drown out all of the good. It also has become clear how the negativity compels me to eat things and amounts that I do not desire and in order to drown it out.
In reading, Today Matters, by John Maxwell, he discusses the discipline of a good attitude and I have realized that mine needs a serious adjustment in order to be successful at not eating compulsively and living a more enjoyable life in general. No longer can it be dependent on emotions that are so temporary. From now on, it will be based on my decision to look at the best in any situation, thought, person or circumstance, so I can use these inputs for good and to bless and build others as well as including myself. Even further, he shares that a colleague labeled people in 1 of 2 ways: a polluter or a purifier ... today, I become a purifier as much in my own head as in my world.