Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Well I have had a rough start... More than one actually... Can't seem to stay with the motivation. My life is pretty crazy right now and I honestly don't know what day it is some days. I spent part of the time walking around like a zombie when Austin's going through his teething head-fits... =/
I had such a good streak of exercising everyday going on too. I think I was going on a month with only missing 3 days of working out. And then I took a couple days off because I hurt my toe... And it went downhill after that lol.
Now it's attempt #3 or so to re-commit myself to overhauling my lifestyle. I know that I cannot be perfect and work out and eat exactly right every single day. That is unreasonable. I just have to push myself as hard as I can without hurting myself. I have to give it my all. I owe this to myself. I deserve it. I deserve it for so many reasons. SO I am on my way. Here I go, this time I mean business. I am gonna rock this joint and I am not stopping until I feel I am where I need to be. I have already started to see the transformation in my body from all of the working out I have been doing!! It's amazing!! I wasn't really doing anything too crazy and I can see soo much change already!! That's what keeps me going. I can't give up now. I need to push myself forward. I have so much to prove to myself right now. I know I can do this. I am capable and I will show everyone else that they should never underestimate people. You shouldn't be so quick to judge........
FINALLY, one of my old friends messaged me about being fitness buddies today. It seems like perfect timing!! I feel so distant from other friends now and uncomfortable talking about serious, important issues with them for some reason.... Heather and I always could talk about stuff openly and freely. I am very excited to reconnect with such a wonderful person AND get another motivator to aid in my weightloss journey!! Sooo excited for all of this!! =)
The snow is all melting away again... That is one major help in feeling good and being able to be physical outdoors. Sunshine is also a huge mood lifter!! I am hoping all of these factors mean that I just may have a pretty happy spring/summer with my son and family and friends. I am also looking into school and applying for jobs as well. Being a Mom is the MOST CHALLENGING JOB EVER!!! But even though it can be hard as heck sometimes, it is also the most rewarding job ever!!! I love every minute of it. But, I know that my little man needs more than just me in his life now. He is a social little kid, so curious and just plain amazing. Everybody loves him and he is a very friendly and sweet little kiddo!! I am the luckiest Mama ever!!! =)
I am going to start the 30 DS yet again tomorrow lol. I really hope I can make it more than a week at a time this time. I am IN LOVE with my Leslie Sansone Walk at Home Dvd but I try to do the 30 DS before I do that so that I make sure I get it done before I lose motivation lol. It worked but then I hurt my toe and didn't work out and lost the spark I had for it... I am igniting that damn spark right NOW and I am not giving up this time!!! If I can't do anything else, I CAN DO THIS!! I have complete control over my body. It's all in my hands to shape it how I want it to look. I need to be healthy, want to be a hottie. Lol. Well MORE of a hottie, of course ;). Haha.
Ok enough chit chat, gotta pain my toenails and head to bed, so I can be up early with my little monkey man and get some things done tomorrow. Have to go to court just for them to tell us we wasted our time going on Wednesay and that alone is giving me super anxiety. Just another reason to get my workout on in full force tomorrow. I need any help I can get to destress and relax about this stuff. I am going bonkers with all the chaos in my head...
Life is what you make it!!! So get to makin'!! Lol.