Monday, March 12, 2012
Here is a quick update in video form. I am not really good at candid vblogging since I do struggle with public speaking but I am just tossing this one out there with the idea that I want to do more in the future once i get over my stage fright.
Ultimately I want to start V-blogging more often. I have to say that there is a certain fear that I do have. I guess I need to address that fear for me to really make progress. I have enjoyed the companionship of alot of people on Sparkpeople and you have been overwhelmingly supportive of my journey. You folks are truly my lifeline but there is a self-consciousness that I still fight that tells me that if people were to see the real me, that they wont like me as much, which is ridiculous but I have my struggles too ya know..
I do want to attach a face to the blogs that so many people read so that you can really get to know me rather than the "spit polished" blogs that I produce sometimes.
Sometimes I am not so refined as my writing seems to be but thats ok, I really think that you need to see the person side of me. I am not superhuman just because I did a few things and lost a few pounds.
I struggle, I have to put action before feelings for those times I really want to just sit there, I still over eat at times, I can be weird too....trust me....
But one thing is for sure, I have a compassionate heart. It's not enough for me to have lost what I have lost and get fit. I want to take someone with me. I want someone to maybe see me and all of my bumbling and get the idea that if he can do it, so can I.
I want you to come with me.