Monday, March 12, 2012
All my ducks are in a row! I have gone to a couple of doctors, have had blood drawn, even had a procedure done that I have been putting off for years- in preparation to get into high gear for losing weight. I am VERY healthy, great blood pressure, fine cholesterol, no precancerous issues, ...... but my chart (and I did see it) says MORBID OBESITY (I have 70+ pounds to lose)... OUCH! AND then my doctor tells me, let me take some pressure off of you, "forget exercise for now"... let's just focus on your food intake/portion control. DID SHE REALLY SAY THAT??!! She wants me to substitute two meals with replacement meal bars or shakes and eat a well balanced dinner... and NO EXERCISE??!! Kiss of death for me, I have to pretend I did NOT hear that at all! I will NOT forget exercise, I just can't. Since January 9 (my last blog) I have been walking, riding an incumbent bike and doing the elliptical-- not very regularly but about 2 x a week-- the eating has been questionable. So yes I will be focusing on eating, but I can not stop the moving-- it keeps me off my antidepressants (and I like being off meds!).
So this is what I am gonna do.... Monday is blog day- and I will blog what it is I am willing to do to lose weight for the week ahead of me and Thursday is weigh in day- that is how I will stay accountable. I have tons of healthy choices in my house for everyone (and I have to keep up with that!)- and I plan on cooking 3 x week from Sparkpeople recipes. I will work hard EVERY day to get all of my water in. I can not eat two replacement meals-- I have done that before and it doesn't make me feel well BUT I will eat one bar or shake a day for ONE meal or snack (usually after work I need something) and then cook healthy meals for dinners. I will exercise when I can- I will make great effort to do so- even if it s just a 20 minute walk. If I journal my food, that is a bonus- right now I am focus on the above basics!
Let's hope Day ONE turns into Day 174 (days until my sister's wedding)... AND LET'S GET MORBID OBESITY OFF OF MY CHART!!! I WILL have gastric by pass surgery if I can not, this one last time - lose the weight and keep it off... If I am at MORBID OBESITY status by 50 I will have the surgery.... I have 5 years to lose and maintain! I can do it- My mom had the surgery and it has NOT been easy-- it is NOT the easy way out, it is a total lifestyle change. I would really like to avoid the surgery BUT will not wait until 70 to do it (My Mom is 69 and finally did it- I am SO SO PROUD of her-- she is so determined to live a pain free life, a full active life and she will!!). I will not have her do this in vain, I will watch her and learn from her and try my hardest to avoid the surgery. She is very inspiring, VERY!! I do this for ME and for HER!