Moving on. Its such a meaningful 2 word phrase, but it takes so much more than you ever expect. To Move On. From the past... into the future... away from what you know to be true to something you believe might be true. I dont know, maybe its all just insanity and maybe even hilarity. I am not even sure anymore...

Its been over a year since I joined SP... and I didnt keep up with it and now Im back at 167 lbs... I guess I didnt really move on. But I did move. To NY. To be with someone who really has set my world on fire. So I have sort of moved on from users, and abusers.

Lost touch with Raquel. Havent seen my folks since July. Its been a really new experience. But I pay my rent. Getting bills paid off slowly but surely. This growing up thing isnt half bad, but its still something I rather not do. So everyday at my house we do silly things like eat Key Lime Pie for breakfast or play video games all night or buy big containers of chalk to doodle on the EXTREMELY long driveway we have when its sunny. I realized I didnt get much of a childhood so Im going to have as much of one as I possibly can before I have children of my own.

Maybe thats why I gained weight. Heh. I was okay til I moved up here. Maintaining about 137-145 lbs... but up 20 or 30 lbs is not good. So I go to the gym with my great friend Kyla and work out about twice a week. It was more often but since starting at Terra Nova Pizzeria, I dont seem to have the time or energy to hit the gym. Hopefully that will change as I get my schedule sorted out with them. Thats the other problem. We dont have time for a lot of home cooked meals, when at my parents house, thats all we ate. So its been an adjustment. A lot of McDonalds, Wendys, Pizza and Chinese food. Gotta do better than that. Just have to have a little more motivation. Anyone have any advice? Also, I think Im going to start measuring myself again. Im not as concerned about weight as I am inches. My 5s dont fit anymore and that frustrates me.

So here's my re-commitment to this. My Spark. My Idea.

Be Happy.

PS. Its been 447 days since my last cigarette! :D