Friday, March 09, 2012
Spring Break is upon me. I am soon to return to my much missed friends and family for a week of bliss.
I exited my last class last night after what I would call a very successful midterm test. I was so elated that I didn't mind waiting an hour at the bus stop for my bus to take me home where I would have to make the 10 min walk from the bus stop to my house. I didn't mind at all. In fact, I was almost skipping, I was so happy to be free!
The only thing that put me down is that I went over on my calories, but I was just too happy to give myself grief. It was a long hard day and my eating was the last thing on my mind but I still managed to only go over by about 100 cal.
This isn't even the best part. When I woke up this morning, I started to pack and think about what clothes to take home. I was looking in my closet when I spotted one of my most beloved dresses. This dress is black with pink polka dots and cat shapes on it. It is hard to see the utter adorableness with just that description but trust me, it is cute. I don't really wear it anymore because there is a band at the waist line that basically strangles me when ever I wear it and makes it rather uncomfortable and almost painful to wear. But it is cute, so it stays in the closet.
I decided to try it on today. The last time I wore it was just before Christmas when I was at my heaviest at over 180. Today, I am almost down to 170 and I decided to try on the dress. The part of the waist band that it normally gets stuck on had the zipper pass by it like it was never a problem. The waist wasn't tight and the zipper gave me no problems, when before I would have to struggle madly with it to zip all the way up.
Today. It fit perfectly.
This led me to try on my other clothes that I haven't worn in a while because of the same problem. Almost all of them fit perfectly, some were still a little snug but they weren't particularly uncomfortable. It was the most amazing thing of my whole week. I could not stop smiling as I kept pulling things out of my closet. I realized that this was more rewarding than anything that the scale could ever tell me. After the past two grueling and awful days that nothing seemed to go right. I was almost on the verge of tears with joy. I realized that I never ever want to be in the 180s or even 170s ever again. I never want to struggle to put on my clothes. I cannot and will not go through that ever again. I will keep on with my journey until there is not one thing in my closet that I wouldn't wear because I am too big for it. I will never be this far outside my BMI again. This is the best thing that could happen for me for spring break. This was my goal. I made it happen.
It feels wonderful.