Indulging in a little self pity.....
Friday, March 09, 2012
It appears I'm not going to lose any weight this week. My normal weigh-in day is Sunday, and I haven't lost any weight this week so far, so I doubt I will make any appreciable gains in the next two days, especially since it's my husband's birthday this weekend and I was hoping to have a steak dinner with him -- modified, in my case, of course, to be smaller in size and lower in calories.
I have done 60 minutes on the treadmill every day for the last 10 days. I've been averaging less than 1500 calories per day. I count my calories scrupulously, and sometimes I even add in more calories than I might have actually eaten, just in case I estimated low on one of the foods on which I had to guess. So I don't think I'm "cheating." What am I doing wrong?
By the way, Hi. I'm kind of new here. I've been visiting the Spark site a lot, but this is the first time I've ever posted more than a sentence or two.
It's not just that I didn't lose weight this week. I've been at about the same weight for the last 10 days. I did record a two-pound weight loss for last week, but haven't actually lost any weight for around 10 days.
Between my BMR and exercise, minus the calories I'm eating, I'm at about an 1100 calorie-per-day deficit. Someone please tell me it is not possible for a 5' 4" woman to exercise an hour a day and eat a 1450 calorie-per-day diet and remain at 250 pounds for the rest of her life. I mean, seriously.
I know I'm impatient, but this is a lot of work. I don't want to scrimp and save on calories and work out an hour a day if all it gets me is...... the same.
Well here I am at 210 pounds, so obviously I did break through my plateau. I don't know why it came or why it went. The most frustrating thing is to do everything right and not lose any weight when you feel you should have. I eventually broke through the plateau and lost 8 pounds in the first week of April. Go figure.
In fact, I'm sort of at another plateau. I have been trying really, really hard for the last 3 weeks, being scrupulously honest on my food blog, exercising consistently, and doing everything right. But I've barely lost a pound and a half in three weeks. I would like weight loss to be orderly and consistent and have the results exactly correspond with the effort, but it just isn't like that. I've taken monthly cycles into account -- this should be my "lighter" two weeks. Just isn't happening.
The only thing I know to do is keep on keeping on. "The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." I think that's in the Bible somewhere. My flesh is getting stronger, but when it falters, the mind has to summon the strength to push the body over the threshold. Time to rely on inner grit and determination. I refuse to be deterred from my goals, so onward and -- downward.