Thursday, March 08, 2012
Any of you that have lost some weight have gotten the question what's your secret and stared into the eyes of you friends, family and co-workers as they wait for that magic answer. Then you tell them. Eating right and getting off my butt. They look at you with this look of disappointment. Like really that's it? But it goes deeper than that. It's really is conquering that I can't attitude. That it's too hard attitude. That doesn't only apply to weight loss but to life in general. I think the biggest lie ever perpetrated on humanity is life is easy.
The fact is it's not. Life is hard. Life is hard in the USA, Canada, England, Colombia, South Africa, Angola and everywhere else. Given the "hards" are different but it's still hard. One thing I didn't see as a blessing but now I do see is a gift is I have never expected anything to be easy. Because of this I don't really complain a lot in my day to day life. I know there are millions worse off than me and millions better. I have always felt that my battles are just that my battles. But when life turned around for me is when I really consciously started choosing what would be hard in my life. When I started saying sure this might be difficult but you know what it will be worth it. Once I stopped worrying about what I perceived as hard or not and what I couldn't do and started focusing on what I could do my whole world changed.
- Being over weight was hard
- Being unhappy was hard
- having low self esteem was hard
- Not being able to get off the couch was hard
- stopping breathing in my sleep was hard
- being sleepy and drained all day was hard
- being a bad role model for my kids was hard
- walking that first mile was hard
- going to gym at nearly 400# was hard
- doing 10 mins on the elliptical was hard
-doing 10 min on the bike was hard
- lifting weights was hard
The point is being unhealthy was hard. Mentally, Emotionally and physically. Trying to get healthy is hard Mentally, Emotionally and Physically. Once we get past whether it will be hard or not (Because there isn't a not). There is one question left is it worth it. Feeling like crap all the time wasn't worth it. It wasn't easy. I didn't feel good. I didn't look good. It wasn't worth it. Getting started and staying on this journey is really hard. But you know what it's worth it. So that is how I stay on track when I want to eat like I used to I ask myself is it worth it. Is that going to really make me feel better or worse about myself. Yeah it's hard to say no and I am not perfect and I eat any and everything but I do it in moderation and I try my best to work it off. What has prevented me from giving up to know that I AM WORTH IT. I am worth working hard for. My happiness and my ability to enjoy life is worth working hard for. Because at almost 400lbs. That was not easy. feeling like a failure was not easy. Beating myself up was not easy. It was also not worth it.
So I share all of this to say yeah life is hard. For each and every one of us. But you know what if it is going to be hard anyway. Why don't we try to make every minute, every decision worth it. Because YOU are worth it. All the hard work, frustration is worth it. Because you are improving YOU. What in the world would be more worth it than that!!!!!