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Falling again.

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

It seems as nowadays I can be "perfect" only for three or four days, and when I fall I immediately go back to depression and hopelessness. It is interesting that I can see so clearly with my friends in AA that a relapse never leads to anything but depression or anxiety, but that does not stop me from relapsing with food.

As I was walking, hooping and biking yesterday I still stayed within my calorie range. I was at a seminar about export to Brazil and was invited for lunch. I could choose between fish our pork - and the traditional swedish potato sort of "raqlette" to that pork made me choose the course with the most calories. I also had some icecream for dessert...
For dinner I had a chef Meg creation:

onion, carrots, chick peas, green beans, green peas, potatoes, tomatoes, curry turmeric, cayenne pepper and vegetable broth 311 cal. Too hot and to be honest sort of boring... but cheap as I had all the ingredients in the house and took away my hunger. Without it my overeating at night would have been much worse so I am grateful.

The sink was shined.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SILLYHP1953 4/4/2012 3:00PM

    I need to start trying more meals on here, have only tried a few, and I even bought the cookbook.

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DAWNFIRE72 3/7/2012 9:50AM

    Perfection isn't always the best strategy for this journey. You are doing great and moving so keep going.

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KELLIGIRL523 3/7/2012 8:40AM

    It's the picking oneself up that counts, I would have to agree. I'm in the same boat and I just need to keep paddling!

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MOSTMOM1 3/7/2012 8:20AM

    Hey, I think three perfect days is pretty amazing, myself. I think I'm striving for semi, almost, not quite near perfect, most days.

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JOYINKY 3/7/2012 8:20AM

    Just keep tweaking.
Nothing wrong with your lunch if you enjoyed it. You can do that occasionally.
It's mindless eating that will get you in trouble. Hang in there; I used to plot those down days on a calendar; they rarely lasted more than three days too. What's with the 3's? I found the 3rd day, 3rd week, 3rd month and 3rd year of maintaining the most difficult. Changing my mindset from "diet" to "lifestyle" has helped. But, I believe there were both physical and psychological forces at work too. On the 3rd year, definitely psychological; no more Kudos and support. Everyone acted as if I didn't need to "diet" anymore and it was harder to be consistent. This time I made it!!

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AKELAZ 3/7/2012 3:56AM

    Totally with you on 'perfect for three days' only. The number of days may vary but overall trying to be 'perfect' is never a good idea for me - cos the minute I slip I feel so defeated that I stop trying at all. Personally I need to learn that living 'imperfect' - and accepting it- is the only possibility for me. I find it very difficult though. I have a friend who says 'OK - I'm putting that slip-up behind me and getting on with it' and she DOES because she really means it. I envy that. I need to learn how to mean it as well. You too?
Try not to be disappointed in yourself - you have another chance today. emoticon

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KASEYCOFF 3/7/2012 3:02AM

    Substitute sweet potatoes for white potatoes and what you have there is one of my favorite suppers, tho I might cut the cayenne a bit - I like super-spicy but not necessarily super-hot.

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DSJB9999 3/7/2012 2:46AM

    The meal looked fantastic.

We both realise that even if we keep falling, picking ourselves up is the important bit!
I've fallen again and need to be strong.

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