Tuesday, March 06, 2012
Yesterday was one of those days that had high highs and low lows. I started the day off strong with great conferences at the preschool for my boys. It's always nice to hear your kids are smart, funny, kind and considerate. From there I went to the YMCA and signed up for a membership. To get things started the Y wanted me to have an orientation to be sure I could use the equipment. I scheduled this for lunchtime so that after work I'd be able to get a workout in. I attended the orientation and met a great trainer who gave me some good pointers. I spend the afternoon working and excited about working out in the evening.
Man. Was I feeling great and invincible. And then I got a phone call that started off okay but quickly turned into a very emotional, painful discussion. One that took everything great I was feeling and made me feel guilty and awful about myself. The phone call lasted long enough that I missed the window when the Child Watch was open so I didn't get to work out. Instead I had to hurry dinner and get the boys to bed. They were extremely grouchy since they ate late and going to bed a little later than usual.
After they went to bed I wanted to go to the kitchen and eat the last of the cookies. But I didn't. I decided the best thing was to go to bed. I felt drained and knew that I had to get up early because I am travelling for work today. I did wake up in the middle of the night but I watched a few sitcoms and fell back to sleep.
Today I'm regaining some of the thunder I had yesterday. I am not quite back to where I was yesterday but I'm working on it. I am hoping to get back early enough to get to the Y. But if I don't, I don't. The important thing is regrouping and getting that "I'm worth it." feeling back.
In the past, yesterdays low would have taken me out for weeks, maybe months. These days I'm feeling so much stronger in mind that I'm accepting what I can change, letting go of what I can't and moving on with my goals. The peace that comes with knowing that I CAN and WILL is so powerful.
I will not let anyone steal my thunder. They may hijack it for a few short moments but I'm always worth it and will reclaim it!