Monday, March 05, 2012
My past self always loved sweets. My family made the comment that I would never be able to survive boot camp if I wanted to join the military. It isn't that I couldn't do all the physical type stuff, its the 9 weeks or so of no chocolate that I couldnt' survive. Yeah, even now I'd have to say that's true. However, I am improving on the intake. Before, girl scout cookies would be gone in a week. Now, they are able to last a year. Granted, part of that is due to the fact that they were hidden in a cupboard, but the willpower is still there. Also, dessert, in the form of ice cream, was common growing up. Now, the desire isn't there as much. It's more of a weekly treat, than a daily one. However, a package of oreo's don't last longer than a week, so obviously there's still stuff to work on with the sweets.
I recently did a 7-week streak of working out for 20+ minutes for 6 days/week. However, here's still room for improvement in the exercise department. I'm a procrastinator and lazy. I'll admit that - always have been, probably always will be. (It's easier to hide at work though.) I need to work on making working out more important of a task in my day, and not one that I put off to the last minute. One thing that I have found that works is having a commitment, like practice when I was on swim team in high school, or group workouts when I was doing marathon training. But when I didn't have a group workout, it was hard to be motivated to get dressed and run outside, or go to the gym. If I'm really going to succeed at this, I need to find a way to do it on my own, and not depend on a group.
Motivation for the journey is in part my husband. My goal weight is about 130 lbs or a size 10 (or roughly thereabouts). That was my weight when I met my husband over 5 years ago. He is generally happy with me, but will make comments occasionally about my butt and waist having been smaller. In part, it is for me as well. My self-esteem has never been amazing. It might have seemed alright from the outside, but inside I would definitely have rated it low. While I don't think losing weight will actually improve my self-esteem (even when I was that size, I wanted to be smaller), the fact that I can accomplish something like losing weight should be able to be used as a tool to help me improve it.
Coming up with a rewards system is hard, mostly because I don't want to plan for something, then be disappointed that I can't get it, due to financial issues. However, here is what is in my pot of things I would choose from and goals that it could be awarded for.
~ being at 160, 155, 150, ...
~ being at a size 16, 14, ...
~ being able to buy a size M top
~ workout streak
~ finishing a race
~ new clothes
~ iTunes or DVD purchase
~ dinner at a nice place like Olive Garden
~ relaxing stuff like mani/pedicure, massage, hair-dye at a salon