Sunday, March 04, 2012
And I KNOW this is the place to go for it!
Tell me I can, please? Tell me I can do these things I want to do. Tell me I'm good enough. I need affirmations that I'm just not quite feeling yet, but I want to!
I recently became a hoopnotica certified hula hooping instructor, and I feel like I'm standing in my own way as far as starting to teach classes. I WANT to teach, I WANT to branch out from just doing massage and start working on the fitness side of our business (I co-own a fitness and massage company with a personal trainer) I WANT to start contracting more massage therapists with our company so that I can concentrate on 1) my regular clients I already have 2) the actual business of running our business and 3) building hooping classes and groups. I love being a massage therapist, but I want to be MORE too. Am I crazy?
I got an email from Hoopnotica a couple days ago. I had submitted my story of weight loss and hooping and what it means to me. They notified me that I was one of the people chosen to be a testimonial for them. They're going to use my story as a testimonial to what hooping can do, and I'm VERY excited about that, but I know myself.
I have to write my bio, my story in a longer format that I gave them already, and take pictures of myself...by March 15th. I'm terrified. Mere words cannot express how much I HATE pictures of myself. I'm afraid I'm going to listen to the voices in my head that tell me how bad I look, and that I should just be satisfied with what I'm doing now...and just procrastinate myself out of doing what I need to do to go forward with this. It's a huge leap for me, and I suspect being part of the hoopnotica thing will give legitimacy to classes that I put together too.
I've also been asked by a friend to write an article on hooping for an e-magazine she and her business are starting. This is another fantastic way to get my name out there as an expert on hooping. This is also due by mid-March.
Tell me I can do this. Tell me I don't want too much, that I can work at this, and make it happen the way I want it to. Help me to not stand in my own way....please?
I know this is a little disjointed, but I had to type it as I was feeling it, or I don't know if I'd have gotten it out.