Sunday, March 04, 2012
I was doing great losing weight then all of a sudden life turns upside down. My dad, my hero, my friend died unexpectedley . He was only 59. He was always healthy when I was young never sick. I just don't know how to get my motivation back. My Dad died November 13 2011. My kids and husband love me and are very supportive but I just can't get back were I was before he passed. I gained 25lbs just since he has died. I need help. I'm just stuffing myself with junk I cannot deal with him dying. It was so sudden and unexpected. I miss him and wish I could talk to him again. I deal with my sadness by eating and eating and overeating. The week my dad died I gained 10lbs!! I just kept eating and eating nothing would get me full my life was drained of life nothing made me happy!!!! I gotta kept going for myself, my husband and especially my children. I just need to get out of this funk that I'm in. No motivation No get up and go . My dad was self destructive he never ate right and he drank all the time. He was always drinking. the alchol killed him. I'm self destructive I eat all the time BADDD stuff pizza, pastries , Fast food ,
I just need to get back into it. My dad loved me exericising he would go for walks with me. He loved me no matter what. Why can't I Love me? I need to find a new normal without Dad.